First day of school.

[logansrogue]

I must say, I came home rather depressed.

Not only was I not with my friends in class today (I missed them dearly) cause I'm repeating, but everyone in the class knew each other and didn't really know me. I felt so left out. I'm terrified that when it comes time to break up into groups for projects, I'll be on my own. :(

Then there's the fact that this is a six month course, after which I'll have six months where I have to wait for the next certificate to start because Cert IV doesn't do a mid-year start. I am so boned. What am I going to do for six months? I was talking to my brother at the station and some fucking smart-arsed jerk overheard and said, "Get a job."

Yeah, very fucking funny. God willing, I should be well enough after the operation to work. But who wants to hire me for six months? I suppose I could just do temp work again, like data entry or something. It'd be really nice to be able to earn some decent money for once.

I'm just scared if I DON'T get better. What will I do? :( I'm already nervous about doing this course in this state. *sigh* Fuck.

Anyway, the upshot of all of this is that I'm feeling a bit down. I feel like I've been left behind. I hate this sickness. I'm so shitty that it's done this to me.

Comments

[chocojester.livejournal.com]

Don't think of the negatives. It can push other thought out of the way. I know from experience and it's hard. I can understand though what you mean, but repeating can be hard. You just need to give it time. I repeated myself. Granted it was like year 2 but the impact at the time was pretty hard, but then I had new friends that I could get along with as well as my old ones ;)

I do hope everything will work itself out for you. Keep any options you have as open as possible. 6 months my be a short period but if you explain everything in full and give them your reason why you still wish to work, it's being honest and they may still consider (depending what you're wanting to do).

But in all, all I can respon to you with is a massive and great, big *HUGGLES*! I'm here to talk to at any point if you wish.


OT: Your Inbox at the N.org forum is full. Tried replying to your PM but I couldn't. I'll get the file reuploaded for you soon.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks, darling, I really appreciate the advice! *hugs* Hopefully things will workout for me.

I emptied it a bit. :)

[strangedave.livejournal.com]

It is shitty.
So, 6 months to get your career as Engine Records recording artist going then? Doable!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Yes but I have to make enough money to support myself, Dave. Equal to or more than what the government would give me in a six month period. $5200, that is, 200 dollars a week. I don't expect you to be able to help me get me that kind of income.

Anyway, I could probably use the experience.

[sugaryfun.livejournal.com]

Can you go on the dole in the meantime? I mean, I know they ask you to look for full time work even when you're planning to go back to full time study in a couple of months (ours is not to reason why, ours is but to do or have our payments cut off),but you can look like you're looking for work without necessary actually looking.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Dude - it's the dole I'm afraid of. There's a lot of treking around, looking for work and heavy-handed crap and I don't like it. I'd just prefer for them to put me on Work for the Dole for six months. But I don't know if they'd do that for me. :T

[sugaryfun.livejournal.com]

Ah...that sucks.

If you lived in Brisbane I'd give you my boss' number 'cause we're hiring casuals, but since you're way over there all I can do is wish you luck so...good luck.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks anyway, dude. Bless you. I'll figure something out.

[strangedave.livejournal.com]

I know, I know. Just trying to put a positive spin on it. THe truth is, you'll be in the same situation as many thousands of other people, only you will have loads of talent and plenty of people to help you out, which not everyone is lucky enough to have. You will find something, you just don't know what it is yet and you have a few months to work out what it will be.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I know. *nods* It's just another stress. *sigh*

[tommmo.livejournal.com]

You can get part time or casual work over a six month period, as there are many companies who don't really think that far ahead. You can just start working and after six months quit because the hours "aren't compatible with my study." I've done that a couple of times. You can even get work where they let you cut back your hours once you start school, which is what I did with Quokka.

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

*hugs her nancy*

[http://users.livejournal.com/lothar_/]

Li/Sakura! You get a cookie. ^_^

Random asshole at the station, you get a nasty gesture _|_

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

XDDDDDDDDDD

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

*nods* Fucktard man.

[nousia.livejournal.com]

... Gotta love people who fail at acting as if they know everything.

I'm really sorry, Nancy. Hope you feel better. ♥

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thanks, sweety.