First day of school.

[logansrogue]

I must say, I came home rather depressed.

Not only was I not with my friends in class today (I missed them dearly) cause I'm repeating, but everyone in the class knew each other and didn't really know me. I felt so left out. I'm terrified that when it comes time to break up into groups for projects, I'll be on my own. :(

Then there's the fact that this is a six month course, after which I'll have six months where I have to wait for the next certificate to start because Cert IV doesn't do a mid-year start. I am so boned. What am I going to do for six months? I was talking to my brother at the station and some fucking smart-arsed jerk overheard and said, "Get a job."

Yeah, very fucking funny. God willing, I should be well enough after the operation to work. But who wants to hire me for six months? I suppose I could just do temp work again, like data entry or something. It'd be really nice to be able to earn some decent money for once.

I'm just scared if I DON'T get better. What will I do? :( I'm already nervous about doing this course in this state. *sigh* Fuck.

Anyway, the upshot of all of this is that I'm feeling a bit down. I feel like I've been left behind. I hate this sickness. I'm so shitty that it's done this to me.

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*nods* Fucktard man.