I was bored. Now I'm just pissed off.

[logansrogue]

So, I buy a LaCie portable hard-drive and I copy all my mp3s onto it. That's ten years of mp3 collecting.

OR SO I THINK.

It only copied HALF of the fuckers, and the rest was deleted. I only noticed this a WEEK LATER when the files have been irretrievably deleted.

...

FUUUUUUCK!

It's ALL our music. ALL of it. The MAIN FILE. Now I have to dig around and get it all back again! It'll never be the same! God, I feel like crying! NO, I feel like pigging out on chocolate.


Another depressing thing - I'm putting on weight again. I went to the dietician and I was 65.2 kilos. I just wanted to fall into tears. That other set of scales must have been fucked. I never lost any weight - I'm still big. *sigh* Probably because all my food is sorta high GI. I'm going to talk to my dietician in three weeks and say, "Listen, dude, what do I need to cut out of my diet so that I stop getting porky?" Cause dude... SO don't want to be fat again. I mean, I've cut out all oily food. You think that would help, you know?

Sixty one. Sweet, sweet sixty one. I want to be sixty-one again! *sob*

Comments

[mawaridi.livejournal.com]

Dude, how tall are you? 65 is so. not. fat. Also, you've been sick constantly for a long time, it is inevitable that not being able to move around as much as you may once have done will muck about with your metabolism (probably the cocktail of hormones and other drugs I expect you're on doesn't help either). It sucks, but you're not fat and it's nothing to freak out about. If you're healthy (in a nutritional sense), being 4 kilos over the weight you wish you were is nothing, you know?

If you can do more (gentle) exercise, that would be a better way to tone yourself, boost your metabolism and "stop getting porky" than cutting anything out of your diet. I know endo means you get tired very easily, and are sometimes too sore to do anything, but I hear pilates is good for that sort of thing - builds core strength, apparently. You could get yourself a video/DVD or something.

But seriously. Don't freak. You're not fat.

[mawaridi.livejournal.com]

The MP3 thing sucks, though :( Wah.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I know I'm not *fat* fat. I just - I liked the idea of being slim and I can see the fat creeping back. I just felt like I was taking good care of myself, I suppose. I didn't feel lazy or sick, and I know it's is completely in my head.

I'm 168cm. So yeah - not too short. :)

Hugs,
Nancy.