Eight days...

[logansrogue]

http://www.endo-resolved.com/laparoscopy_advice.html

I was reading it and I started crying. I'm so scared. I'm really fucking scared. I'm scared of the needles, of the pain, of being somewhere I don't know, of being incapacitated for how many days... I'm just really terrified. :( Mum keeps telling me I'll be fine but I don't trust her. She was all laid back about childbirth, ergo - she's fucking nuts or something. :(

I'm going to try to relax. I'm getting my periods, which is OH so joyful, they haven't arrived yet but it's day 29 so they should be here tonight or tomorrow ( providing I'm not carrying the second coming, because there's no other fuckin' way I'd be pg... "Blasphemeee! Blasphor Youuuu! Blas for everybody in the room!"

Bwah.

Comments

[fallimar.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I've gone in for a minor proceduere with an anaesthetic, and it was pretty much the scariest thing I'd ever gone through... Well, beforehand. Afterwards I was just really glad that the problem was gone, I felt a bit sick for a few days afterward but the relief and the tiredness pretty much outweighed everything.

You'll be fine. Ask for a sedative if you can, I did and it was fantastic, I was all sleepy and calm, even when they did the anaesthetic. I'm about the WORST person ever with needles... Get one anywhere near me and you're liable to get it in the face and have a very scared and agitated Falli climbing up your bookshelves and swinging off the lights. You'll probably be surprised how nice and supportive everyone involved is, your anaesthetist will tell you everything that's going on, and pretty much hold your hand through the whole hting if you look scared.

Basically, I was scared out of my wits (it was a bloody bad thing that happened to me) but the people there just made me feel a hell of a lot better even before I went in. Still, the sedative was a huge plus. Maybe ring and ask if they can give you one? That's what I did. :)

*hugshugshugs* You'll be fine, and you'll be glad when it's over.

[fallimar.livejournal.com]

Also, if you want to talk about it I'm online now, I really don't want you going in before you've had a good long talk to someone who's had something similar done. :)

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :) I'm sort of running between the computer and the laptop on the table in the dining room, writing things down and working out the mythology for my novel (anything to distract me! LOL!) But I'll be on later, if you will be. I'd like to have a good chat with you sometime before the op! :) (Anyone that's been through this, really). I'll have to say to them, "I need sedation. I'm scared out of my fucking wits."

[fallimar.livejournal.com]

yeah, it's a good idea. I mean, you will be scared, but they pretty much do anything they can to make you less scared. It's always hard to imagine, but they have hundreds of people who are just as scared going through, so they're used to making allowances and know how to reassure you. In all seriousness, you WILL be fine, as long as you let them know you're bloody frightened :P

... I sure did. Fwoo. Poor buggers.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

LOL. I imagine a keyed up cat at the vet would be less trouble than me! LOL!

[sparklinblossom.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Best wishes for you sweetie. I'm scared of hospitals/doctors so I sympathize. You'll be fine, you're a tough cookie!

[kellygreen.livejournal.com]

Good luck, hon. I despise needles too, so I definitely sympathise! Stay strong...it'll all be over soon. *hugs*

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

^.^ Me thinks perhaps some nice hot tea and DK yumminess could maybe relax you, at least for a little while?? Even if it doesn't relax you, eye candy is good for the soul! XDD

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Yeah, DK goodness always makes me feel better. This morning? I was in the middle of a Charlie dream. He was helping me find my other shoe with the marvels of complex mathematics. Seriously. LOL! It involved me throwing myself at him and burying my face in his curls a lot.

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

I am sooooo jealous! I have TONS of shoes that he can help me hunt! XDD

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

LOL! Yeah, so do I. For such a poor girl, I have a LOT of shoes!! LOL.

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

LOLZ! Me too! I don't know if you have one there, but Payless rocks my socks..er...shoes. >.< Buy one pair get one pair 1/2 off. GOTTA love it!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I got two great pairs of shoes from there when I went to San Fransisco. And yeah, they have outlets here. :D

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

I get all my shoes from there because I have a fat foot,and they are the only ones around here that sell wide width. The only pair of shoes I have that aren't from there are this pair of strappy shoes that have LED lights in the heel...and they blink when you walk. @.@ They are soooo tacky ! <3<3

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Oh man those sound DELIGHTFUL! I love tacky. :D

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

XDD THEY ARE! I thought you'd appreciate them! I tried taking a picture, but the light never shows up in the pic. T-T

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Oh well. :T

[indi-kayt.livejournal.com]

I know everyone will have said this but you'll be okay. A mate of mine had it done and she's 100% now! Genius!

And considering the pain you've been in for so long, won't it be better to start feeling better even if you're laid up for awhile?

Did that make any sense? I have no idea anymore

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I'm just scared that they won't find anything or they can't fix what I'm suffering from.

[jakie-em.livejournal.com]

I did the laparoscopy thing back in 2001, and it was ok. it was just sore to walk for a few days.

just remember to relax and all will be good.

[gemfyre.livejournal.com]

Are you getting a local or general anaesthetic?

Local would freak me out too I think. When I got my wisdoms out, lucky they decided to put me right under anyway, because it wasn't gonna happen under a local.

Be brave, you'll get through it. *hugs*

[mix-o-choc.livejournal.com]

speaking as one whose had lap surgery done before it's a walk in the park ... the bit you gotta worry about comes after surgery like pain management and wound healing but it's all good after about 2 to maybe three weeks

[sugaryfun.livejournal.com]

You and I seem to have our cycles synched up. Sorry, that's probably too much information and totally unhelpful, but I don't have anything helpful to contribute except...um...good luck.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Hehehe. We're period twins. Or something. LOL!

[likebunnies.livejournal.com]

I underwent laparascopy for endo twice way back in the day when I was 17 and then 18 (which was really a long time ago!) No, it wasn't a lot of joyous fun but it's not all that bad. I'd take that over childbirth, a kidney stone or an ugly root canal and I've done all three of those things now! Besides, at least it means they're doing something to help you. Just relax and you'll be okay.

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

*BIGPANDABEARHUG*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I looooove laughing gas, but it makes me paranoid. ((O_o))

[3starsinmyeyes.livejournal.com]

*huggles you* I order you to stop reading about it, its just going to freak you out more!

I'll be saying a prayer for you dear. you are going to be fine.

... except with that whole second coming thing ;) that sucks :D

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Day 30. Still haven't started bleeding yet. Sore, though. :P

[3starsinmyeyes.livejournal.com]

so will you name it Jesus II? or something else?

could really just be stress though

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Well, my nephew is already called Joshua. Maybe I call call him Jeezy-Creezy.

Probably is the stress.

[afdani1984.livejournal.com]

Sedatives.....are...THE FUCKING BOMB! I had my wisdom teeth out last year and I was scared as fuck about that. I hate needles, hate hospitals, all that stuff. I set the heart monitor off before they even did the IV. But they were cool, calmed me down. They actually numbed my hand before they put the IV in. Then they gave me valium and it was like being uber stoned. I think I drooled on myself..I have a few semi concious memories from during the surgery..but the first thing I really remember was my eyes rolling around in my skull and a very big, black, male nurse wheeling me to my friends car. I also had a colposcopy done a few months ago..which is basically a biopsy of the cervix..and that blew. I didnt get any drugs from that, which sucked.

But anyways, like everyone else said..just relax, stay calm, and it will all be over really quick. Hopefully they will be able to figure out what's going on, fix it, and a few weeks of soreness will hopefully make the constant pain go away. Not to mention, you get to have people wait on your hand and foot, you can have a mini-DK marathon, and you can have drug induced dreams where you do naughty, naughty things to him *teehee* I will be around later if you want to talk :)

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks! *hugs* Mmm. DK. Problem is, I haven't been taping the new episodes cause I didn't get to buy another tape. Me stupid. :( I thought "Bwah, I have the first five eps on CD, I'll start taping the rest when I run out". What a stupid stupid idea. If I want to watch them, I have to be on a computer. LOL! And I don't have a laptop that plays anything. Oh well. Mum just got all ten Star Trek movies. That'll do. :D

And cool! You're good to talk to.

[rainfletcher.livejournal.com]

Meh, times like this it really hits that there's an entire ocean in the way, and we can't drop by and give you a hug and tell you it's going to work out.

I can't even pretend to understand what you're going through right now, but hugs nonetheless.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

*hugs* The fact that you would come over and give me hugs if you could means more than I can say! *hugs*

[nousia.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[miscard.livejournal.com]

Hun, I am so sorry you're having such a rough time of things *Big Hugs* If I lived closer to you I would come to your house and stay with you while you recover. I sort of know what it's like to have to lay still and recover...I had two c-sections and those hurt like a son of a bitch, let me tell you. Especially when the muscles start to heal that they have to cut through to get the baby out. The big bad doctors kept pushing me to get up and walk but it hurt so bad :( One thing that you can try to do (and I know it's hard to do, but it does help) is try to take a journey with your mind to get your thoughts off of the pain. This might sound strange, I know, but I've had two c-sections, shoulder surgery, mouth surgery, and injections in my lower back. I was awake for the injections and I found that if I just closed my eyes and pictured my "happy place" (picture yourself amongst the mermaids, swimming freely in the water with them, without a care in the world), I didn't realize the injections were being done. It is scary waking up after going under anesthesia, just make sure that you tell the nurse right away if you feel sick. They will usually shoot some medicine into your IV that will quickly make it go away. And when you get home, just try to sleep so that you can heal.

Anyway, if I was there I'd bring my mp3 player so you could listen to the podcast and then I'd read fan fic to you or some nice racy romance novels *lol* I hope everything goes ok, and I'll send lots of good thoughts your way that what they're doing will get rid of your pain for good *more hugs* You'll be okay luv, everything we have to go through in life makes us stronger, and you're a strong person already. And of course, being the believer that I am, take comfort in the fact that your guardian angel will be by your side through it all. We never go through anything alone *hugs*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm having nothing so terrible as a C section. Just keyhole surgery, nowhere near as traumatic. But I'll need the sedatives and the mermaid visions cause I swear - I'm so scared of needles!!

You're so lovely! *hugs the patootie out of you* I'm definitely not going through this alone, not with wonderful people like you there to support me! Thank you! *hug-hug*