I really hate myself.

[logansrogue]

I'm looking through the photos I took of myself today. I don't know if I'll put them up or not - possibly not. I don't want people making fun of how I look. I'm terrified. I also feel I'm not pretty enough to make art out of.

I'm not being, you know, false and fishing for compliments or any shit like that. I honestly feel this way about myself and I feel like crying cause I feel like there's NOTHING I can do about it. I used to be so fucking skinny. I miss those days. I hate how I look now. I think I look terrible.

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[starfyre01.livejournal.com]

I'm very self conscious of the way I look too (I've got my own issues, believe me :-P), so that's why it took me well over a year just to put up a few pics of myself up on LJ which are f-locked. I know very well how you feel when you don't think you look "right."

(((Nancy)))

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[esicardi.livejournal.com]

Well, being skinny is not being pretty, quite the opposite, think some supermodels who seem ill and undernourished. And attractive woman should look healthy, and have natural curves in oposition to Holliwood plastic artificial curves. Think of the Venus of Milo.
She isn't exactly skinny and still her body is beautiful and considered art, isnt it?
Check other stock galleries and you'll see many of the models are not exactly skinny.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Er... that link doesn't work.

And she's not saggy. My skin is sagging at the front. And I have mottling on my belly from months of wearing a heat pack. My boobs aren't as nice as hers either.

But I do get what you're saying. I have a friend, Ellie, who is doing stock work. She's not skinny but she has a *gorgeous* figure. It's just beautiful. She's got the right kind of curves.

[esicardi.livejournal.com]

Here's the Venus link:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v60/Estrellita/milo1.jpg

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Er... that link doesn't work.

And she's not saggy. My skin is sagging at the front. And I have mottling on my belly from months of wearing a heat pack. My boobs aren't as nice as hers either.

But I do get what you're saying. I have a friend, Ellie, who is doing stock work. She's not skinny but she has a *gorgeous* figure. It's just beautiful. She's got the right kind of curves.

[shimmiwyld.livejournal.com]

Babe, trust me it will be the best thing you've ever done if you put them up. You'd be surprised about the guys on dA. Some of the parts of me that I hate the most were their favourite bits. The person is always more critical of themselves than others are of them ^_^ *snuggles*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Yeah but I really do look terrible. :( I have a fat neck and yucky boobs. I'm just - gross.

[esicardi.livejournal.com]

I agree with bishounenjunkie.
People sometimes loves exactly that thing that you hate most about your appearence.
I can tell that for example for experience with my husband.

[esicardi.livejournal.com]

ETA:
*sends hugs*
My grandmother allways says "sin grasita no hay curvitas" which means that if you are too skinny you lose your curves.
It is important for you to feel comfortable with yourself.
Regarding posting or not the photos, it is your choice, but it's more important independently that you should not be so hard with yourself.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I know. I really do think I'm hormonal.

[esicardi.livejournal.com]

Let's see, if you are so afraid of your naked self,why don't you try first with photos with some clothes on?

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Uhmmmm. I didn't take any? LOL!

[strangedave.livejournal.com]

I have seen the photos. You are made of sex. Now stop whining and give the nice people their nudie shots :-)

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

*laughs* XDDDDDD Sorry, I don't know why but all comments here are very funny XD lol

Go curvy girls! lol

[nousia.livejournal.com]

NANCY. I can't believe you actually wrote that.

You are gorgeous. Please don't feel that you're not pretty enough to make art of. You are. ♥

[nousia.livejournal.com]

*make art out of

*facepalms*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Would you believe I'm hormonal? LOL. If it's any consolation, I feel somewhat better this morning. (I have a terrible back ache and a headache. But other than that I'm okay.)

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

*thoughtful* When was the last time you saw me?

::nudge::

[melalucci.livejournal.com]

Can I see? ::peer::

Re: ::nudge::

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Uhmmm - sure!

[indi-kayt.livejournal.com]

Skinny isn't everything. People make fun of skinny people too. And if people are gonna make fun of how you look, why the fuck do you want them reading your journal anyway??

Besides, you seem awesome, the pictures I've seen are hot and (here comes the big one) IT'S ABOUT YOUR INSIDES ANYWAY.

So be okay with you and you'll be fine.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks, darling. :) *hugs*