The road to recovery is never smooth.
Oct. 21st, 2009 03:20 amI've had a very, very bad couple of days. I'm not going to lie.
But I've actually got the presence of mind to know I'm not my usual balanced self and want to do something about it. I'm not quite sure what's set me off, or whether this is something that's been building. Have I had the idea in my head that I'm suddenly going to be better because of seeing a psych? And continuing to have trauma, to have difficulties, to have depression issues is upsetting me?
I wish I knew what was wrong. Is it my drugs, are they affecting me? What the hell is wrong with me? Why are my moods so wild? I've been cycling madly between calm and insanely anxious to very depressed.
I mean, I know I can deal with this. I've lived through bad mental health before. I just like to know the reasons for things, you know? If I knew that sometimes, you just have a dip whether you're making progress in your life or not, then I wouldn't feel like I was going absolutely insane.
Any survivors out there, or friends of survivors, know what I'm talking about?
But I've actually got the presence of mind to know I'm not my usual balanced self and want to do something about it. I'm not quite sure what's set me off, or whether this is something that's been building. Have I had the idea in my head that I'm suddenly going to be better because of seeing a psych? And continuing to have trauma, to have difficulties, to have depression issues is upsetting me?
I wish I knew what was wrong. Is it my drugs, are they affecting me? What the hell is wrong with me? Why are my moods so wild? I've been cycling madly between calm and insanely anxious to very depressed.
I mean, I know I can deal with this. I've lived through bad mental health before. I just like to know the reasons for things, you know? If I knew that sometimes, you just have a dip whether you're making progress in your life or not, then I wouldn't feel like I was going absolutely insane.
Any survivors out there, or friends of survivors, know what I'm talking about?