Kinda bummed.

It's a Sunday and I haven't done much today. I watch some Monkey and an episode of Poirot. I had some tabouli and I finally defeated the layouts for the neopet version of Mahjongg. I should be able to make about 2100 points a day if I'm in good form, on top of the 1900 I tend to make with Destruct-O-Match.

Haven't heard from the boy. I figure he's thoroughly lost interest.

I've been a bit down since, feeling a little un-sexy, undesirable. And it's not cause of my looks. I know that some people think I'm pretty and some don't. That's a subjective thing and it's something I can't entirely control. It's my personality I'm in mourning for. Guys just seem to dislike me the moment they get to know the details, you know? Am I that much of a scary retard?

Sometimes I feel like I'm never going to find that 'someone'. Most of the time I don't care. Sometimes I do.

The football has been good this weekend. I've enjoyed it.

About as much use as tits on a bull...

That sums up me this weekend. I've done nothing but lay around and feel sick. My endo pains have been amplified, it seems by the flu, so I've been feeling really fantasticly bad. I slept a lot today, I had a real hard time staying awake. I'd sit down to watch a DVD and by the end of the episode of either Monkey or Poirot, I'd be drifting off to sleep.

I've gotten no real writing done to speak of, or drawing or any music. For a week I've been useless. I really do hate that, you know.

I think I'm falling into a bit of a downer. I've been waiting for the next bit of surgery for ages and I'm terrified I've fallen through the cracks. I'm going to call my gynaecologist's office tomorrow to find out if they've forgotten about me.

Until then, I kinda feel like a stuffed animal that's been accidentally kicked under the couch. Just sitting there, gathering dust, not really doing anybody any good and not really missed much either. I figure I'm sounding sorry for myself but after the past few days that I've had, I think it's kinda understandable.

I just wish the pain would piss off. It's pointless hoping that but I tell you, it really does get to you when it's bad pain for a few days. I figure it's my period coming up. I'm going to have a bad premenstrual week, I just know it. This period'll be a bad'un.

Liza, you own my soul, lady!

All those years later, still fabulous!

At the beginning... Watch her wow them! She starts out all shy and quiet, and then the voice that comes out - holeee sheeeyit!

Judy and Liza duet Absolutely awesome, what a gorgeous video! Judy adjusting Liza's mic in such a motherly way, and the pride glowing in her eyes when Liza lets go at one point. Makes me nearly cry!

Gypsy In My Soul... She's just flawless!