Another Sunday

Hi all. Well, it's another Sunday been and gone, another week that has slipped through my fingers. This cold has kept me away from my music work, and I'm very sad at that. I want to sing and complete my latest songs on the computer more than anything, but I sing more than two lines and my voice becomes hoarse and I cannot reach my notes at all. Terrible!

The government want to sign me onto their intensitve assistance programme for finding work. I'll definitely take them up on it since I want a job badly. Thing is, I kinda thought I was skilled enough to get a job easily. It was sobering, and perhaps a little damaging to my poor ego to find out that I needed help. But I'm not a proud person - hell, I'm on government benefits, I have no place for pride in my life! - so I'm taking the help that I can get.

Ages ago I'd left my comics sitting on the table, and my Dad got happy with a pencil and made his own little 'addition'. I was rather horrified at the time but now I love it and intend to keep it on there forever! Thank God for the magic of computer editing!



You can see where he added his own little bit. Silly old bugger ^_^.

Well, I'm off to shower and draw. Drawing is all I can do, and I've felt VERY lethargic and lack-lustre lately. I've found it so hard to DO things. A part of me wants to be active and do as much as possible, but with this cold gripping me, it's very hard to find the energy. I make a lot of excuses, I find. I hate it. I wish I was more like the ambitious people I've met in my life who've gotten somewhere. I guess I'm just a useless lump :/

Nancy.

Another Sunday

Hi all. Well, it's another Sunday been and gone, another week that has slipped through my fingers. This cold has kept me away from my music work, and I'm very sad at that. I want to sing and complete my latest songs on the computer more than anything, but I sing more than two lines and my voice becomes hoarse and I cannot reach my notes at all. Terrible!

The government want to sign me onto their intensitve assistance programme for finding work. I'll definitely take them up on it since I want a job badly. Thing is, I kinda thought I was skilled enough to get a job easily. It was sobering, and perhaps a little damaging to my poor ego to find out that I needed help. But I'm not a proud person - hell, I'm on government benefits, I have no place for pride in my life! - so I'm taking the help that I can get.

Ages ago I'd left my comics sitting on the table, and my Dad got happy with a pencil and made his own little 'addition'. I was rather horrified at the time but now I love it and intend to keep it on there forever! Thank God for the magic of computer editing!



You can see where he added his own little bit. Silly old bugger ^_^.

Well, I'm off to shower and draw. Drawing is all I can do, and I've felt VERY lethargic and lack-lustre lately. I've found it so hard to DO things. A part of me wants to be active and do as much as possible, but with this cold gripping me, it's very hard to find the energy. I make a lot of excuses, I find. I hate it. I wish I was more like the ambitious people I've met in my life who've gotten somewhere. I guess I'm just a useless lump :/

Nancy.

Wisdom from youth.

My sister just said something to me very sweet. I've just done an illustration for my Lord of the Rings site, and it's not like my other fantasy art of late. It isn't fully rendered like an airbrushed painting, and it's more akin to Ralph Bakshi's scenery art in his cartoon of Lord of the Rings. I find him very very inspiring, as he's successful, and his work is very intensely emotional, and not photographicly perfect. It's all about the brush stroke, the emotive line and the beauty in that, rather than how pretty it is. He animated a great movie, and I hope that this means that I can animate one of my own movies one day. Perhaps BirdMaritaN, or Carrie and the Magnetism. Anyways, Tina said to me as I showed her this artwork, which is very rough, thick and heavy;

"Believe in what you work on."

It's so simple, but it's true. So thank you Tina, I will.

Nancy.

Wisdom from youth.

My sister just said something to me very sweet. I've just done an illustration for my Lord of the Rings site, and it's not like my other fantasy art of late. It isn't fully rendered like an airbrushed painting, and it's more akin to Ralph Bakshi's scenery art in his cartoon of Lord of the Rings. I find him very very inspiring, as he's successful, and his work is very intensely emotional, and not photographicly perfect. It's all about the brush stroke, the emotive line and the beauty in that, rather than how pretty it is. He animated a great movie, and I hope that this means that I can animate one of my own movies one day. Perhaps BirdMaritaN, or Carrie and the Magnetism. Anyways, Tina said to me as I showed her this artwork, which is very rough, thick and heavy;

"Believe in what you work on."

It's so simple, but it's true. So thank you Tina, I will.

Nancy.