Fuck you, Centrelink.

[logansrogue]

So today I got a letter that told me they'd rejected me for the Disability Pension. I'm not entirely surprised. I can still walk and I seem fairly with it when you talk to me. They don't see me sitting in bed for hours, unable to sleep due to debilitating abdominal pain, or any of the other shit I have to deal with.

I want to fucking punch my doctor for filling in the form badly. I have to do this all again, I guess.

I'm just so tired of fighting with the world. I'm tired of trying to get people to see that I'm not slack, I'm not giving up, I'm not laying down. It's not that I'm NOT TRYING, it's not that I am letting it win.

I AM FIGHTING EVERY DAY TO FUCKING SURVIVE. I am fighting depression, I'm fighting endometriosis, I am fighting trauma, I am fighting anaemia.

I am sick of this, so fucking heartily SICK OF THIS. I am sick of being shunted from one department to another because Centrelink doesn't know what to do with me. I am sick of explaining to these WITLESS FUCKS that I CAN'T TAKE PUBLIC TRANSPORT ANYWHERE, as walking long distances is IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME.

I'm sick of stupid fucking people that have it in their heads that I'm not working to fix my situation.

I'm sick of looking at my future and seeing nothing but destitution and misery because I can't make any money for myself. I know my father worries about me, about once he's gone. I don't tell him that I'm frightened too, that I'm scared I'll end up homeless or living in a tiny shithouse room in the middle of nowhere because I can't pay for rates in the house.

I just want something to go right for once, you know? I just want to get to be happy for a LITTLE WHILE. I don't want much, I just want to be able to look after myself enough that I can get stuff done. Stuff that might concievably lead to enough success that I won't need payments anymore, you know?

God I hate my life sometimes. Sometimes it just gets to be too fucking much.

Comments

[annearchy.livejournal.com]

*snuggles*

I love you, Nancy. Hang in there, sweetie.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Anne! *hugs*

[http://users.livejournal.com/lothar_/]

*hugs* I wish there were something I could do. Is there some charity I can give to that helps women with endo?

[meleth.livejournal.com]

*hug* I hope you find the help you need, and that an opportunity arises for work that suits your physical condition.

[hotclaws.livejournal.com]

uggg,that sounds exactly like what I'm going through.

[sparklinblossom.livejournal.com]

I can't even begin to process the screwed-up-ness of this, but I can offer hugs and a ear to rant-listen.

*bighugs*

[alya1989262.livejournal.com]

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[purrdence.livejournal.com]

Bloody Centerlink.

When I was working in Japan, Drhoz applied to Centerlink for temporary disability benefits because he had Reactive Arthritis and was off work for much longer than he had sick leave for. Because we were married by that point, Centerlink expected me to chuck in my job in Japan, suddenly find enough money to fly home (my plane ticket home was actually tied into me completing my work contract, so quitting early = no ticket) and look after Drhoz. Never mind I would be unemployed then. Gah.

[angriest.livejournal.com]

Go talk to your doctor about it again, stress exactly where you think he/she stuffed up, insist they fill in the form again, and go back to Centrelink.

Sonia's doctor had to threaten Centrelink with legal action to get her on the pension.

[apolla.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I have nothing useful to say, but have a hug.

[http://users.livejournal.com/lemmings_/]

I'm just so tired of fighting with the world.

I can't say that I know exactly how you feel. But I know what it's like to have no one believe you and to have to fight so hard only to be told that you aren't fighting. My problems appear and then frequently go away. I feel so awful for you and for the fact that this entire world is based on a system of money and governance that just plain doesn't work. People who don't fit the rules get left at the kerb. I hate it. And I really hope it get's better for you.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I started the appeal process today. Apparently the reason I was rejected is because the doctor didn't fill out the form properly. So now I have to print up a new one and go through this process all over again. *sigh*

[secrets-n-lies.livejournal.com]

have you tried talking to the ombudsman?

seriously, if you haven't you should.

[ausizoro.livejournal.com]

dunno what i could say to make it better but stick with it, Centerlink are crap but they will eventually give in.

[shantari.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

[greenforest-elf.livejournal.com]

dont give up. do u need the name of a good psych???? she is a SUPER star and if u get a referral from your gp she is free.

keep at centerstink, keep going back as part of their test is to make u go back again to prove you are right.

trust me.