Inexplicable sadness.
Feb. 3rd, 2007 07:26 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
One of those chronic illnesses I forgot to mention in that earlier health-bitching post was depression, which I'm pretty sure is clinical. For example, I've been waking up this week, inexplicably depressed. I can't really think of a reason for it. Sure, there are factors of my life that I'm less than happy with, but nothing that would make me feel so black. I'm hoping it's been PMS related, because I don't really need a depressive episode right now. I want to be happy - I *like* being happy. I've got a lot to be happy about. My body chemicals just don't seem to be on the same page as me.
So, I don't really know what to do. I could seek counselling, and I'm sure it'd be reassuring, but it would be weird cause I'd be sitting there going, "Uhm, well, I'm unemployed, but that's cause of the health problems. I keep myself busy, so that's okay. I have a lot of projects on my plate right now - that's really exciting. I'm going to a big sci-fi con at easter time, so that's super exciting. Ted Raimi friended me on MySpace and said he liked my music! That was a nice little cheer-up! I get sad that I don't have a boyfriend, but there's no use moping about that. I miss being as fit as I used to be, but I'm working on fixing that by altering my diet and trying to sort out this migraine problem. The most depressing thing for me right now is my teeth. I need to get my teeth fixed."
"...Teeth?"
"Yeah."
But teeth don't make you feel suicidal, do they? I hope it's the hormones, I really fucking do. :( Cause ugh - I don't need pointless reasonless bottomless depression right now.
So, I don't really know what to do. I could seek counselling, and I'm sure it'd be reassuring, but it would be weird cause I'd be sitting there going, "Uhm, well, I'm unemployed, but that's cause of the health problems. I keep myself busy, so that's okay. I have a lot of projects on my plate right now - that's really exciting. I'm going to a big sci-fi con at easter time, so that's super exciting. Ted Raimi friended me on MySpace and said he liked my music! That was a nice little cheer-up! I get sad that I don't have a boyfriend, but there's no use moping about that. I miss being as fit as I used to be, but I'm working on fixing that by altering my diet and trying to sort out this migraine problem. The most depressing thing for me right now is my teeth. I need to get my teeth fixed."
"...Teeth?"
"Yeah."
But teeth don't make you feel suicidal, do they? I hope it's the hormones, I really fucking do. :( Cause ugh - I don't need pointless reasonless bottomless depression right now.
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Date: 2007-02-02 11:14 pm (UTC)You should try and go see my doc, even if its just one visit (book a long appointment).... she is a star.... am happy to drive you if you like.... she has helped me with alot of issues (health and dep)...
Oh tell me bout teeth, Im so glad my wisdoms are gone gone gone
*more hugs*
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Date: 2007-02-03 12:16 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2007-02-03 04:25 am (UTC)Can you email me greenforest_elf@yahoo.com.au theres some stuff I wanna tell you, which is why I think she is a star!! and we can work out a time to go if you want to, am happy to help. I had spent YEARS looking for a doctor I liked then I was recommended her... she is well known to ppl down that way, anyway, more in my email!!
Yep she will see anyone from anywhere, Im over half an hour away. You just need to make sure you ask for a long booking as its your first time seeing her.
*hugs*
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Date: 2007-02-02 11:20 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2007-02-03 12:16 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2007-02-03 01:00 am (UTC)Have you ever considered that as opposed to depression, you may have PMDD? It's like an insanely severe form of PMS, with symptoms that may include, but aren't limited to:
*Persistent sadness or depression
*Marked anxiety, feelings of being "keyed up" or "on edge"
*Mood swings often marked by periods of teariness
*Persistent or marked anger or irritability
*Decreased interest in usual activities
*Fatigue or lethargy
*A feeling of being overwhelmed or out of control
*Flu-like symptoms, including muscle aches, headaches and joint pain
*Changes in sleep patterns — problems falling and staying asleep or sleeping too much
*Changes in appetite — overeating, lack of appetite or specific food cravings
Here is a more comprehensive list of possible symptoms: http://www.healthsystem.virginia.edu/uvahealth/adult_women/pmdd.cfm
It's often treated with medications or hormone therapy. I suffered for years and didn't realize that this could be what was really wrong with me until I was in college.
If you think this may be a possibility, I'd recommend that you keep a little log, see if these start to spring up close to your period. It was really helpful when I went down the list with my gyno and explained how many people noticed my mood swings, irritability and depression.
If I'm wrong, forget I spoke...well, typed.
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Date: 2007-02-03 01:14 am (UTC)I was reading up on PMS and PMDD before you said this, so thanks for helping me look at more sources about it. I really appreciate it! *hugs*
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Date: 2007-02-03 01:34 am (UTC)I lucked out, though. I went to my gyno and when I told her about what was going on and what symptoms I had and why I thought it might be PMDD, she was really good. She did have me get a pelvic ultrasound and a blood test, but that was mainly to rule out PCOS and Hormonal imbalances.
Regardless, Good luck and glad to help!
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Date: 2007-02-03 01:48 am (UTC)♥
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Date: 2007-02-03 03:23 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2007-02-04 05:41 am (UTC)I really do think it was hormonal. I'm sure being sick doesn't help my mood though, it gets me down if I'm hormonal enough.