The Return of Ouchy McOuchypants.

[logansrogue]

It's 7am and I've been up for three hours. The pain really is terrible. I've been reading the internet and having my arse served to me on fandom_wank cause I remembered wrongly something JKR said once. (I said that she didn't think her novels were fantasy.) It was kindly served, not bitchily served, so it was all good.

I'm very high on codeine and still in lots of pain. I think Mum ate up my other bag of rice crackers. We're both fiends for them.

I've been feeling depressed a lot, hating my life. I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know if I want to go back to music school. I don't want to go back to work, but that might be the sickness talking. I sure liked work when I was healthy.

I just feel like my life has been turned on its head and I don't know what I want anymore. Perhaps it's cause I'm falling into a depression. I just wonder what the point of trying anything is when I keep running into things that stop me - mainly me getting sick.

I have a mole on my stomach that is hurting. I'm going to go to the doctor to talk about getting it seen to. Which is great - more scars on my belly. Joy!

The only thing keeping me centred is my comic. I keep working on that, keep telling myself that I'm useful and that I am indeed doing something with this life God gave me.

I want to read through the great huge LotR fic I started but I don't have any appropriate music on my lappie to listen to while reading it. It won't work, listening to Omar Faruk Tekbilek while reading about Frodo being sad.

God, my guts are killing me. Whelp - I'm off to distract myself from sickness and my own wallowing self-pity! Chuckers, darlings!

Comments

[nousia.livejournal.com]

:(

Don't worry, be happy. &hearts

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Little factoid - can't stand that song.

But I do appreciate the sentiment :D

[nousia.livejournal.com]

UGH that's right! *slaps self* I forgot. Sorry, Nancy!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

LOL That's okay!

[canellaphile.livejournal.com]

*hugs* That is all for now. *hugs*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

thank you!

[dclore.livejournal.com]

I keep giving you *hugs* but maybe they aren't working properly?

So here are *HUGS* *HUGS* *HUGS*

This might cheer you up (or not) but I've been asked to send three of my songs to a music producer in Canada! If nothing happens it might still result in a free trip over there!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Oh! Good luck!

Sadly, hugs are good but ultimately it's a problem I have to fix, so the only person that's gonna make this all better is me. :T

[dclore.livejournal.com]

Thanks. If you want (if anything happens) I'd be more than happy to play him one of your songs? Perhaps Break Me?

It might be a problem you have to fix but that doesn't mean that hugs aren't mucho importante!

*HUGS*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Only if you want to. They're very rough demos, too, so if you do play them, let him know they're just a home recording to get the idea down. :D

I like hugs, so keep on giving them. :D

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

Now I'm curious, what did you work in?(is that question right? lol)
Yes, may be you are just depressed *hugs* Fuerza, Kingyou! x)
I want to cheer you up, here...some hhr porn= http://community.livejournal.com/ledicomics/6522.html LOL

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

What was my job? I was doing data-entry before I went to school, and doing it rather well. I think my calling is typing up shit on a computer for crap pay.

[onlymyhobby.livejournal.com]

Hey hunny, sorry, I know, I've been a lousy friend lately. No excuses. I really hope that you feel better very soon. I've been trying to keep up with everything.

Keep your chin up! I hope everything works out. I love rice crackers, we didn't have them anywhere for the longest time, and now they're everywhere and I am loving it so! Take care babes!

[mexicanjewlizrd.livejournal.com]

*long-distance hugs*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks, babe! *huG*