Codeine induced musings. Hmm. Whatever. It's tosh.

[logansrogue]

I'm feeling the muse upon me. "The MUSE is UPON ME! Bring me a small LYRE!" (Small liar, small liar!). Anyway.

I've found some ideas are fire. They're like fire. They ignite and they burn and you have absolutely no control over them. Sometimes you *don't* want to control them, because they're so beautiful and warm and they fill you with awe. You can't believe that you can either contribute to or cause something so awesome and so simply wonderful. Sometimes someone else started the fire, but you want to keep it going, keep it burning, and you'll throw whatever you have into it to keep it going.

I love that. I love that aspect of creativity. I like that we can make an event, but we don't control it. We think we do, we can pontificate and pretend we do, but we don't. We even feel so damned clever and proud of ourselves, but we're merely passing on something that we heard, or something that we noticed. It was already there, we just called attention to it.

Sometimes the idea of a character, or a character, will grip me so hard that I have hardly any control of myself. Greek Gods have always deeply affected me. I always liked Ares when I was a kid. I liked the idea of him. Don't know why, cause, you know me - I was a very pacifistic, gentle little girl (and I still am in a lot of ways).

Perhaps it's because the elemental things that Ares represents are things I am sadly lacking in my personality, things I need to do what I have to do in this life. Impetuousness, fire, ambition, selfishness, lust, that bullheaded confidence that gets the silly God into all sorts of messes. I had this real clear idea of him in my head when I was a girl of eleven, twelve. I wrote that Athena and him had a thing, but that's cause Xena hadn't happened yet. And then when it did, and I saw Ares? I was delighted. It was just who needed to be Ares. Anyway, this character has sort of lived in my head for a very long time indeed. It's not surprising, I mean, it's a very strong archetype, isn't it? Not overly original or unique, not even that *likeable*, yet I love the thought of him to bits. It's so odd, the things that grip our imaginations, isn't it?

I'm going to *try* to work on some of my Xena fic tonight. It's the only fic I have that's not eaten up by the Laptop of Sadness (awaiting the files to be retrieved of). I think I get in love with ideas, if that makes sense. Some ideas I'm so enamoured of I pay more attention to them than to life. I guess cause life happens, no matter what, but the ideas don't gain substance unless I put it into them. They're just floating specks of inspiration.

Fuck, I need to cut back on drugs, I think. But I've been in a hell of a lot of pain this week. It's very, very tiresome. And I've read something like three or four Poirot stories, and I've finally found a point where I have say "Time for a break". Cause I don't like watching him grow old. I adore him all too much for that. The strange, adorably bizarre little man!

Comments

[indi-kayt.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you're inspired! I'll have to read your fic when you're done.

Feel better, oh yes.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I am high on drugs. My eyes are rolling around in my head. It is of the 'no pain' area, see. My mother said, "You should wait till you go to bed, then you'll go to sleep."

"But then I wouldn't enjoy the fact that I'm not in pain."

So, yes. I think the endo pain is also particularly vicious because people have been playing silly-buggers with my insides.

Ares, however, won't shut up, the dork. He wants me to write about him. That damned, sexy bugger.

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

This is what drugs make you do, Nancy? *giggles* Hee, I liked that (what you wrote). I get ideas all the time...fuck, i have at least 7 stories I would like to do a comic (because you know, can't really write...better a comic xD)...but I get like stucked (spelling?). But I love when muse comes...like Karim did a few weeks ago. And I even think it will be easier to do tham Mythologic Guardians (obviously), so it's first on my list.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

No, drugs don't do this to me. I'm already like this, thinking like this all the time. The drugs just make me a little delirious about everything.

Stuck is the spelling you're looking for. "I get stuck" is the present AND past tense. Make sense of that! LOL.

You can do more than one comic at once. I do! LOL!

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

Yes, you multifacetic* and energic girl xD I just wish I could be more organizated, because with work and college it's a mess :( But I have to do it. Because if at least I don't start now I don't know when I'm going to. I still need to finish that lesbian comic I was making for you.

(*)don't know if that's the word, but I'm taking my chance xD

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Multifaceted. :) Energetic. Organized. Those were the words you were looking for. LOL. Man, I'm so glad I don't have to learn English - it's a spazzy language at best.

I can't wait to see the lesbian comic! Take your time, though.

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I hate when I forget the spelling of such easy words Dx *sigh* Makes me feel dumb...

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

You're not dumb, you're amazing. I only know one language. I suck. LOL.

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

HAHA xD Thanks, Nance :) *hugs*

[nousia.livejournal.com]

I love this entry.

Hope you feel better, hon!

[starfyre01.livejournal.com]

Aiee! I still owe you feedback on the rest of the stuff you've given me to read. I am a naughty person *smacks self*.

I love these types of posts from you. It makes me happy when your creative juices are a-flowing, even when doped up on drugs.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Hah. You like hearing me ramble? How bizarre!

Feedback when you have the time. I love feedback but I'd not want to be a pain. LOL.