Lenny Update

Okay, so, it's not a tumour.

The lady thought it could be either fibroids or cirrhosis, but he thought it was more likely cirrhosis. She said it was a part of him growing older, that as cats age, the organs slowly wind down and stuff. She said the only treatment was drugs to keep him comfortable and around for as long as he was comfortable. She had no idea how long he'd last.

His kidneys and other organs all seemed good, however. And he put up a helluva fight when getting the ultrasound. BOY was he pissed off.

So, I don't know how to feel. Relieved? He's still dying, either way. I made the mistake of reading up on the symptoms of liver cirrhosis in cats, and they were terrible. Lenny has two of them - enlarged liver and skinniness. His blood-pressure is up and he's going blind and shit, but he can still run at a fair clip and he's quite spritely and alert. Loves his food.

I just can't believe this is happening out of the blue like this. I just took him for a check-up.

I am desperate to relax and chill out, but I feel like there's no relaxing. It's really bad. :( It's stupid cause for now? Today? Lenny is out in the yard, licking his balls, annoyed but fairly okay. I, however, haven't eaten properly since yesterday. Well, since Thursday really, and I still don't have an appetite. I don't know what to do. :(