Lenny Update

[logansrogue]

Okay, so, it's not a tumour.

The lady thought it could be either fibroids or cirrhosis, but he thought it was more likely cirrhosis. She said it was a part of him growing older, that as cats age, the organs slowly wind down and stuff. She said the only treatment was drugs to keep him comfortable and around for as long as he was comfortable. She had no idea how long he'd last.

His kidneys and other organs all seemed good, however. And he put up a helluva fight when getting the ultrasound. BOY was he pissed off.

So, I don't know how to feel. Relieved? He's still dying, either way. I made the mistake of reading up on the symptoms of liver cirrhosis in cats, and they were terrible. Lenny has two of them - enlarged liver and skinniness. His blood-pressure is up and he's going blind and shit, but he can still run at a fair clip and he's quite spritely and alert. Loves his food.

I just can't believe this is happening out of the blue like this. I just took him for a check-up.

I am desperate to relax and chill out, but I feel like there's no relaxing. It's really bad. :( It's stupid cause for now? Today? Lenny is out in the yard, licking his balls, annoyed but fairly okay. I, however, haven't eaten properly since yesterday. Well, since Thursday really, and I still don't have an appetite. I don't know what to do. :(

Comments

[amezri.livejournal.com]

I don't know if this helps, but... The only thing I can say is that in our situation with a dog who at 16 was basically deaf and blind with all sort of growths that were not cancerous... we let her live for as long as she wanted to. It was extra work for us having to carry her up & down stairs and for some reason she always tried to bite only me, but as long as she was eating, walking around (with arthritis meds), not in other pain, and aware, we let her be. Animals know when it's time and they'll let you know.

*hugs*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

It does help. My main aim at the moment is to deal with this crushing anxiety. I am drinking chamomile tea and doing my best to relax. It's hard going.

[melalucci.livejournal.com]

The thing that helps me most with my anxiety is sleep.

[alya1989262.livejournal.com]

*hug*

As with any family illness, one of the best things you can do is to not think of the worst. I know it's easier said than done, but I know it helps when you know you might lose a loved one.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Well, I will lose Lenny, it's just a matter of when. My brain is terrified of finding out, but I don't think even the vets would know with any certainty. And if there's anything that freaks out my control-obsessed head, it's the unpredictable.

[asweetdownfall.livejournal.com]

Aww, Nance. *hugs if you want them*