Something is seriously wrong with my head...

[logansrogue]

I forgot ANOTHER psychologist appointment today. I don't know why. I couldn't tell you why. I feel SO STUPID and SO IRRESPONSIBLE and I feel terrible for wasting my psychologists time because she could have been making good money in that session. OH GOD.

What WAS I thinking of today?

- When is my boyfriend going to call me?
- Got to remember to take my antibiotics three times a day because I have a horrible sinus infection
- Ow. I hurt in certain ways, and have certain symptoms. OH SHIT, DO I HAVE ANOTHER BLADDER INFECTION?
- I have to be here when Daniel calls.
- I'm so tired, I thought I was better now but I'm still sick, I need to lie down.

I spent some time with the boyf, but I was in a lot of pain. I don't know what's going on with my body. Both my wisdom teeth, my sinuses AND my bladder are all seemingly infected.

I am a fucking twit. I have goat's cheese where my God-damned brains should be. I feel SO TERRIBLE, I don't know how I will be able to sleep. Hey, wanna know some supreme irony? I was going to talk to my psych about the possibility of me having Adult ADHD/ADD today!!!
GEE I WONDER!

Comments

[shantari.livejournal.com]

Hey, wanna know some supreme irony? I was going to talk to my psych about the possibility of me having Adult ADHD/ADD today!!!
GEE I WONDER!

*lol* Sorry! Couldn't help it.

*hugs you* There there, it will be alright. I'm sure she'll understand.

[kaberett.livejournal.com]

It seems to me that you're saying that in addition to potentially having ADHD/ADD, you're also quite ill in terms of short-term bugs etc. As such it sounds really not very surprising that you forgot! And seconding what shantari said - I am sure she will understand, and I'm also pretty damn certain you won't have been the only no-show that week (or possibly even that day).

For next time, might it be possible to get the psychologist's office/receptionist to arrange to call you or text you to remind you on the morning of the appointment? I imagine they would be understanding about this.

[zzzzsleep.livejournal.com]

This is why I use my phone to make noise a day before an appointment, then an hour before as well.

[drbunsen.livejournal.com]

Yep, I do that too.

Mmm, goat's cheese :)

[mawaridi.livejournal.com]

Ahaha, I was going to say "hmm...does this happen to you a lot? Have you talked to your psych about Adult ADD??" and then I got to the last bit :)

I wish I could work out a way to talk to medical professionals about Adult ADD without them totally dismissing me because they'd be all: what, you have an Honours degree! You can't possibly struggle with focus and remembering things! Except the only reason I have that Honours degree is because I am smart and can write a 4000 word essay in two days if I have to (because I've been trying to write it for months without being able to focus, or because I forgot I even had to write it until two days before it was due). Every assignment in the last four years has been absolute hell because I can't fucking concentrate and I'm always forgetting important things like appointments and due dates.

When I pick my boyfriend up from work (which is most week days) I have to set an alarm on my phone EVERY TIME or I forget, and sometimes I'm still late because the alarm goes off and I think "I'll just finish this thing" and then suddenly it's been half an hour and I've forgotten to leave >_<

Sorry, that turned into a self-indulgent ramble! But I can empathise with that feeling of being stupid and useless, because normal people can do this shit, right? But you're not stupid! And psychs are used to patients not turning up. It happens, whether because the clients forget or because they're too anxious to go. Call her and apologise, make another appointment, and maybe see if she or her receptionist can call you to remind you on the day next time (my psych used to send all her clients a text message on the morning of their appointments reminding them of the time and we'd have to reply and confirm).