I will not watch her die.

[logansrogue]

The girl that made me turn off the twitter feed had a name. Her name was Neda. You've probably heard all about her by now. I sure as hell have.

Lots of people are talking about watching the video. How horrible it is. How gruesome it is. How important it is to watch it, so we know what's happening. Well, I've decided that I don't need to see it. I saw the photo. I saw her death. It gripped my heart and cracked open my mind. I felt a cry in my soul and I wondered, "Why?" Why do these things happen?

I don't need a video to tell me that people are suffering. I don't need a video to feel empathy or to understand the truth of this. I don't need to hear her father's anguished cries. Imagining it is enough for me. I am already having enough nightmares. I'm sure God is sick of hearing me pray for Neda's spirit. And for her family that is no doubt going through hell right now.

I respect Neda. I understand her sacrifice, but I will not watch her die. It seems a pointless torture to me, to put myself through what I already know. An innocent woman was taken from the world for the tenuous hold of a power that ultimately means nothing. I mourn for her already. I do not need to see her tragic end. I've seen enough of it as it is.

Comments

[daemonnoire.livejournal.com]

You're right. No one *needs* to watch it. But the people who are denying that these things are happening really should. It still won't convince some of them, but it might help a few to make the connection.

[http://users.livejournal.com/lothar_/]

Like those self-proclaimed Muslims I found on a message board who criticize the protesters because the guys don't have beards and "look like western men" and the women are doing hijab badly or not at all. Yes, those people need to watch the video.

[asweetdownfall.livejournal.com]

I'm not watching it either. Just READING the desciption(s) of it makes my blood cold. :/

An innocent woman was taken from the world for the tenuous hold of a power that ultimately means nothing.

^ That? Sums up my feelings perfectly.

[anarchicq.livejournal.com]

Maybe this will help you feel a little better.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3puJa2EfcM

[sugaryfun.livejournal.com]

I'm with you. It's awful, but I don't need to see it to know that.

[3starsinmyeyes.livejournal.com]

I'm right there with you sweet pea. I don't need to watch her die, my brain can fill in the blanks all by itself.

One thing that does make me shed tears and pump my fist in the air is that the way they are protesting is by shouting god is good, god is great, from the roof tops. That is faith, right there, and to me, that is hope that this isn't all for nothing. That Neda, didn't die for no reason.