Can't fucking sleep.

[logansrogue]

I have to be up at eight tomorrow, and then in Subi at 9 for a DEP appointment (people that will determine the hours I'm required to work a week with my payment, even though right now? I can barely make myself lunch let alone leave the fucking house). THEN it's 11 to be reamed by my psych for missing appointments and being an 'unreliable patient'. I may very well be kicked out of that clinic. Then I get to rest up a bit before 4:30, where I go through the damned Disability Treating Doctor's Report with my doctor. Again. He won't be happy.

I just can't wait for tomorrow to be over. I wish I could just get the sleep I need. Six hours will NOT be enough and I foresee nervous breakdowns due to sleep deprivation which will be SO MUCH FUN OH MY GOD.

The pain doesn't help. Fucking pain. I've taken pain meds and some valerian. Hopefully I'll nod off soon.

I swear. The Government aren't going to be happy until they've run me into the ground like a bloody stump.

Comments

[asweetdownfall.livejournal.com]

I hope everything went well for you, girl <3

[firvulag.livejournal.com]

Hope it all goes well. It seems a few of my friends have struggled to get the govt to agree that they ahve a disability, which is pretty sad given the health conditions of those people. I'd say that normally I'm healthier than any of them, just not now.

Pain never helps. I'm going to be home again today. I think that makes 12 or 13 days that I've stayed home since going to lancelin which was the weekend of 8 November. I don't envy all you're doctory appointments and am glad that I've only got the one, which will be hard enough to get to if I stay like I am now. Incapable of much in the way of movement without pain.

*hugs* from the sick to the sick

[sugaryfun.livejournal.com]

Poor thing. Good luck with the shrink pacifying.

Dunno if it helps, but the Body Shop's Pillow Mist helps me sleep sometimes (plus it smells really good and wards off mosquitoes). Of course I'm not in shitty endo pain, I just have a little adominal parasite who's busy metabolising like crazy and keeps me awake at times.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

A wonderful cute abdominal parasite that will burst forth in cute squawky wrinkliness and, once unfurled like a fresh butterfly from a coccoon, shall be all bouncing and adorable and messy. *sigh* Yes, my hormones are driving me crazy. LOL!

I think I'd sleep better if I didn't have HELLISHLY STRESSFUL THINGS ON MY PLATE CONSTANTLY. This is what I learned today.

My psych made me lose my shit in the office until I realise she worded shit badly. That wasn't fun. I had a mental melt down right there in the office.

I'm okay now. I'm learning to remember that sometimes, you have to mentally dismiss some things shrinks say cause they're human and they make mistakes. And have weird values. Like apparently, the internet is dangerous or something. Like there's nothing about it that makes it worth the risk. O_O

[sugaryfun.livejournal.com]

*huggles*

The internet is dangerous? Like...um the world? O_O

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Yep. When shit is dangerous, AVOID IT AT ALL COSTS, OR YOU'RE JUST ASKING FOR TROUBLE!

[zzzzsleep.livejournal.com]

I've heard that this new fangled thing... ummm what's it called? Oh yeah! Fire! I've heard that is really dangerous, it can burn you and even kill you! Better stay the hell away from fire if you know what's good for you.