Losing my appointments.

[logansrogue]

So, I somehow, through my own bloody stupidity, missed an appointment with my psych today. I thought it was at 3.30 when in actual fact it was at 11. So my psych said, basically, that she can't keep seeing me anymore because I miss too many appointments. This is how I lost my dental care as well.

I just feel like I'm losing any help that I can get. It's not that I deliberately do this, and I know, I know VERY well that there are people who need help besides me. But I honestly can't help it if I'm sick that day. Though this time was my own fuck up, I will admit that. I'm hopelessly disorganised.

I just feel lost, you know? I'm just finding it so hard to cope lately and this is just... God.

Comments

[melalucci.livejournal.com]

::hugshugshugshugshugs::

[allegraconbrio.livejournal.com]

I get it. Some days I am doing well if I raise the blinds in my living room and see the sun. I have missed more than one appointment because I just did not know what day it was. My therapist has been really patient with me and I am surely not a person that anyone would look up to when they are needing help. I am wondering if maybe you might find another therapist that might understand that you are in need of some extra special care right now. finding someone new is HUGE, but I really do want to kick your psychiatrist for dropping you. That is just not something that I understand. Missing appointments is why we need help. This is difficult.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I know. I slept in today. And I thought I had the time from the card and I didn't, it was the wrong card. I just want to cry, I feel like nobody cares. Half of me is thinking, "Maybe if I just go mad and end up in the psych ward at Charlies, in one of those beds with the gross jelly treats, then I nothing bad can happen because oh my GOD, I can't cope with this shit any more and I just want to go mad." Maybe I'll have a good cry. I find it very hard to cry these days.

[allegraconbrio.livejournal.com]

I care. And melalucci cares. And sometimes crying is not all that is seems like it would be. Yes, sometimes it is a release. But really? it is just saline. No big deal. Shouting and posting here can be just as much of a release. You are not going mad, you are posting and making sense and I get it. xo

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank you so much. *hugs hugs hugs*

[asweetdownfall.livejournal.com]

Oh man that..

I'm so sorry, hon. -hugs-

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Love ya.

[flyingreptile.livejournal.com]

In NZ they always phoned to confirm the appointment a day in advance. I find putting every thing on a Calendar (electronic in my case), although if this is the only time you got the time wrong your "disorganization" doesn't sound like it is the real problem. And certainly not disorganized to the point of being hopeless.

Not technically a substitute, but appointments for hugs are generally less strict than those for psychs, and e-*hugs* even less so.

*hugs*.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hug*

[hotclaws.livejournal.com]

If you are ill enought to need psych appts. you may be unwell enough to miss said appts., d'oh,that should make sense to a psychiatrist if they didn't have their heads up their arses.
I feel for you ,honey,I really do.