Letting art be fun again.

[logansrogue]

Hey dooods.

So, I was talking with my clin psych today about my 'blocks' as I call them. I tend to start projects, and then stop, and stop for months. For a long time I thought I was bored of the projects, but I realised lately that I wasn't bored at all - I was terrified of doing badly.

I then realised I had been putting HUGE pressure on myself to basically be perfect. I have an idea in my head of how good I want to be and if I don't do something that's that good, I don't finish it. My psych said that this was an unrealistic expectation to put on myself, that everyone does a bad job sometimes.

And it also has meant that I tend to take a long time with my commissions because I'm terrified of doing a bad job and being paid for that bad job. She asked me if I'd ever had anyone say they didn't like what they got from me and the answer was "Well... no. I've never had a complaint."

She said that "They don't expect a masterpiece, they expect what they asked for."

I won't stop putting my heart and soul into my art, but I'm taking my neck off the spiritual chopping block and I'm not going to punish myself for not being Stephanie Lostimolo or whatever anymore. It's time for me to start loving my artistic self, warts and all. I'm getting the fun from art back again.

So! I'm going to start doing sketches. Lots and lots of sketches. Some are going to be great. Some are going to suck. I'm not allowed to wallow on them. I'm not allowed to stress about them. I'm not allowed to take more than a day on them. These are my fun sketches, my free sketches, my "Go ahead and SUCK" sketches. I'll do shit but I'm doing it and sharing it with you so you can see my crappiest art and so the pressure is no longer on me to be perfect ALL THE TIME.

Join me on this journey. You'll have fun cause you'll see how often I fuck things up, and I'll feel better because then I don't have the pressure to be brilliant all the time.






This is a playful computer sketch of nobody in particular. She's not photographically accurate, her colouring is loose and shithouse and I didn't bother to neaten much up.

I had a thoroughly wonderful time drawing her.

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[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks! It sat in curlers for hours to look like that.