I don't want to be one of *those* girlfriends.

[logansrogue]

You know, the clingy, possessive, insecure ones. The ones that get mad if their man even looks at another woman, or can't seem to exist without them. I mean, I can exist. I'm living, getting things done, I'm fine.

I just *really* fucking miss him right now and it's SO WEIRD cause we only met on Saturday and we've only really known each other a month over the net. I just feel this connection with him and he makes every bit of my spirit buzz happily.

I think the Tramadol isn't helping. I feel dizzy and sick and craphouse. Tired as hell. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep for twelve hours.

Comments

[sir-devans.livejournal.com]

Does he read this?

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Yes. He loves it when I write about him.

[sir-devans.livejournal.com]

You're so lucky.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I dunno. I think most guys like it when their girlfriends wax poetic about them to other people. :)

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

Syl and I were only together for a week, but it was like sparks flying EVERYWHERE, so I understand exactly what you mean. *nodnod* He just makes even my toes tingle and that's all that matters, no matter how weird it may be. And it's ok to miss him! He probably things it's sweet. XP

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Oh, he does. He told me to lay it on cause he could never get enough of it. It's so good to be in a relationship where I'm not scared to love someone too much. :D

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

*nodnod* Syl's the same way. He tells me all the time how much he can't wait to see me and how glad he is I miss him so much. =^.^= I'm so glad you're in this happy place with me! You deserve the warm fuzzies!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Isn't it just wonderful?! I've wanted this so badly for so long and I thought I was crazy because there'd be nobody who'd fit with someone as weird as me, and here he is! And he fits, we're happy, we're utterly in love. It's just - *sigh* - magical. Absolutely magical. :D

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

*bounces* I know what you mean! Syl and I had both just given up and then kinda fell into each other's laps somehow. It's funny how the most magical things happen when you aren't looking. ^.^

And it's REALLY funny the way you phrased that, because the only explanation that I can give anyone is that he and I "just fit". There's no other way to describe something like this. It's so nice to feel truly content for a change, and it's good to have someone to share it with that won't smack me for being annoyingly happy and in love!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

No, I most certainly won't. You can gush as much as you want with me, but I'll probably gush back at you! *laughs*

I always knew that when I found the right guy, I'd know, and I'd feel a huge sense of relief. Well, I did very quickly with Paul, I feel a ridiculous wash of relief and calmness with him. But I'm also excited beyond reckoning and ridiculously euphoric.

We were meowing at each other over the phone last night. Yes, we're weird. LOLOL!

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

*giggles* OMG that mewing thing reminds of Syl's noises when he's sleep! It's like this little growly purr thing like when a dog is dreaming...you know what I mean? It's sooo cute. I listened to it for like 20 min one night when I woke up and fought to stay awake just so I could hear it. XP

We're weird too, so it's ok! I'm ticklish EVERYWHERE, so he pokes me all over and laughs at me because I squeak when he does it. I tell him that every puppy needs a good squeaky toy! XD

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Well, Paul doesn't know about my ticklishness yet, but he'll probably read this and torment me at some point. I squeak too, it's very embarrassing.

I haven't had the joy of sleeping (literally) with Paul yet, but he warned me that he snores. I scream in my sleep if I dream about spiders, so I figure the sleep disturbing will be equally spread out by both parties. LOLOL!

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

Make sure to wear each other out first so you're both too tired to dream! LOL!

And squeaking is nothing to be embarrassed about! Hell, after being poked constantly for a week in public places, it doesn't bother me anymore. I miss it, actually. I he should feel lucky that I don't squeak all the time! LOL!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I'm sure he plans to be wear me out quite thoroughly when the time comes. ;)

I squeak a lot at the slightest provocation. Poking, surprising me, spotting something really awesome while shopping, suddenly seeing a super cute picture of a baby animal... yep. I squeak a lot.

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

I do it too! YAY for squeaking at random intervals! WH000! Cute shoes and I'm all over the squeakage!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Oh dude, me too. But I *am* chronicly shoe mad.

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

Hehe. You are most definitely not the only one! LOL! Shoes are BY FAR the most effective at giving me a squeegasm.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

My record is buying four pairs in a month. They were all on sale and they're all GORGEOUS but man... I never bought that many shoes before.

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

I bought 3 pair in one day, so I understand! Admittedly, they were on sale and I got a 25% discount because I worked there! LOL! XDD

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Wow. I bow to your shoe mastery! *laughs*

[sakurakiss.livejournal.com]

*giggles* Don't. It's a BAD skill to have mastered! XDD