Daily vent

[logansrogue]

I'd like to stop hurting now.

I'm freaking out. I had this special handout from the psych to help me and I lost it. And now I've gotten all worked up over losing it. I keep telling myself, "You can just go get another copy tomorrow."

There's just this crushing weight of depression and fear. And I'm terrified there's nothing I can do, no therapy or amount of mental gymnastics, that I can do to get rid of it.

I know that's wrong. Logically, I know I've gotten better before. I've defeated bad times. I'm just so scared I'm not strong enough this time around. I'm so frightened!! It's like I'm drowning in despair. It's the most awful feeling in the world. Oh God, I just want it to stop!!

I think I'm going to call the SARC 24 hour line. I obviously need to talk to someone.

Comments

[alya1989262.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tightly*

I have more kitties!

[aeditimi.livejournal.com]

I dreamt about you last night. Is that strange or what, since we've never met? But in my dream, I was at some sort of house party, in a room with a warm fireplace, and you were sitting at a table in the corner of the room, wrapped in some kind of shawl. I approached you and asked if you were still hurting and you said yes. Then I gave you a huge hug and we both wept. I hope you felt that hug, half a world away. Hang in there.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. I've felt so alone tonight, but after reading this I know I'm not. *hugs you* Thank you!!!

[annearchy.livejournal.com]

{{{{{{{{{NANCY}}}}}}}}}

So Australia's medical system is closer to the U.S. system than, say, Britain's? Because it sucks that you can't get the care you need because you can't afford it.

[sir-devans.livejournal.com]

I hope your feeling better by the time I post this.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I can, I just have to pay the money and then go to a building and submit a form to get it back again. No bulk billing. In my mental state that's pretty scary.