I'm wasting my youth away, waiting for shit.

[logansrogue]

Okay. So my gyno (not my actual gyno but a 'consultant' or something) said that I had to make another appointment for a pap smear and an internal ultra sound. Oh, JOY! Also they were considering putting me on Mirena. Mum said no way, that she'd had a UTI at one point and that it was really fucking paintful. Seeing as I've inherited her backwards lying uterus and strange giant voice box, I can probably be pretty sure that I won't want a UTI. Cause seriously, I am so sensitive down there at the best of times.

Right now is not the best of times. This has been one mother-fucking PAINFUL period. I've had it for two days now and it's been AWFUL. No, not two days... three days. Saturday? I think so. The days seriously just melt into each other.

I'm falling into a sort of despair. I realised at the gynae today that this fucking problem isn't going anywhere. I have shit to work through and there's no magic cure. It's the waiting months for treatment that fucks me up. I NEED those months, man! I want to be out and about, meeting people, finding a man, having FUN. Drinking till dawn and working hard and making money. Swimming at the beach, having full, wonderful sunny days.

All I have is art, my book, my cats, my family and my friends. Which is all right, some people don't even have that. And I'm thankful for it, really. To be stuck at home, I've got the best family for it. You can't go a day without someone popping by and making you laugh.

I keep trying to reassure myself that my whole life isn't going to be like this, that things will get better. But part of me thinks it's a fancy hope and that I should be happy with the nitty gritty of things. But I've never been happy with it. It's why I do what I do. Art, whatever. Cause I want to make something better. To leave the place prettier and more colourful than I found it.

Comments

[liluri.livejournal.com]

Just in case you don't know about it yet, maybe you can ask your doctor if a NuvaRing might help?

[asweetdownfall.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry, Nancy.

I wish I knew what to say. :(

[angriest.livejournal.com]

Tell your uterus that if it doesn't stop behaving, you will slap it like a bad, bad donkey.

[classicanne01.livejournal.com]

Art, whatever. Cause I want to make something better. To leave the place prettier and more colourful than I found it.

That's how your art makes me feel :-)
Shiny happy :-)

Oh and the Joxer comics are love!

::sends Patronus Ted over to battle uterine dementors for you::

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Uterine dementors?! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAA! Are they pink with horns?! LOLOL!!!

Patronus Ted is going to be busy with me, fuck the Uterine Dementors!

[classicanne01.livejournal.com]

HAHAHA!!!
Pink horned uterine dementors!
hahaha!!!
Patronus Ted won't have to do much other than show up. They'll run from all the joy he brings you :-D
Then he can stick around and *ahem* deliver the joy
*wink wink nudge nudge*
hehehe!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Your icon makes me horny. LOL!

[classicanne01.livejournal.com]

HAHAHA!!!
But does it make you pink?
That is the question.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

In my special place, yes.

[classicanne01.livejournal.com]

OMB!!!
TMI!!! TMI!!!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

BWAHAHAHAHAHA! I WIN AGAIN!

[starfyre01.livejournal.com]

Aw Nace. I hate seeing you like this :-( I really do. Things will get better, but it's just a number of factors that will help you be able to cope with the endo.

Never feel that you're not leaving a mark on the planet either. Your art/fanfic works are wonderful stuff and I'm always glad to see your work *points to your very special b-day present as evidence* online :-) A talent like yours is something special :-)

Oh, you might want to stop by the GJRS LJ community. sidewinder is working on a GJRS fandom wiki and she's looking for our help. How Blunder On! started would be a great contribution (as a countermeasure to the Battle On comics in regards to a certain strip, if I remember correctly, yes?) - and if you could add in anything about GJErotica, that'd be neat too. I don't remember when it was founded, darn it.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Hmmm, I'll have to look back and figure out when GJErotica was founded. Might even email Findle and bother him so he can tell me.

Blunder ON! was 99, for sure. And it was in retaliation for a mean strip at Tom's Xena page. So I decided "Screw this!" and thought I'd make one for the GJRS to visit that would cater to our sense of humour. :) I've outlasted Battle On by some years. She's probably getting way more work than me, though. LOL!

[starfyre01.livejournal.com]

What really kind of sucks about the whole thing in regards to GJE was the fact that the list got deleted by Yahell *grumbles* It'd be nice to see either the website up and running again or else getting the LJ community in swing, too, for that matter. Findle definitely would be a great source in helping with the Wiki. We GJRs need as much fair representation as possible, and I'm so glad that she's taking this on :-)

That evol! strip is still available for viewing on Tom's Xena page *growls*. Didn't the person who wrote the strip have to issue some type of a grudging apology over it because people/GJRs got so pissed off/caused a kerfuffle of some type? I remember reading about that somewhere in the annals of the GJRS mail list somewhere (I think it was Phil who mentioned something about it). No clue as to how much work it would be to go back into the archives to see, though. There's a crapload of history to go through.

* still waiting patiently for new Blunder On with the storyline that you told me about to appear *, LOL!

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I just have to draw the fucking thing. LOL!

[greenforest-elf.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight*

I hope you're feeling better beautiful! We must catch up soon!

*smoooch*