Mood swings are an evil thing.

[logansrogue]

Well... I'm feeling better again. Don't ask me WHY. I don't know why I feel good. I just do. I talked to my friend BeautyArwen on #theonering.net and she helped, and I just - I was sitting there in the garden bawling my eyes out, feeling no hope whatsoever... and this calmness came upon me. I didn't feel any hope inside of me, any reason to feel good. I just felt a warmth and an... I dunno. And assurance come over me. I had this feeling things would be okay. It felt like it came from outside of me, because I certainly had no reason to cheer up.

Determination welled within my heart too. I know I can do it - do what I must with the music I mean. Never was meant to be easy, I guess.