Fuck.

[logansrogue]

Life is having a real good time stuffing me 'round today. I was all ready and set to go to school. I walked to the station - guts hurting all the way but I was determined.

I got there and what should I see? AN HOUR TILL THE NEXT TRAIN! You know why? Cause apparently the train drivers have gone on strike or something. Well, thank you VERY bloody much.

Some guy kept offering me a lift into Perth but I was like, "No, it's okay, my Dad can take me."

Then Dad did get there and I was so tired and sore and nauseous I just went, "Just take me home. I have no way of getting home anyway."

That and I felt fucking awful. I've been crying today cause I owe TAFE 500 bucks. Mum and Dad don't have much money left and we'll soon be in the red. I don't know how I can justify going to school in the face of that, you know? I cried so hard.

Dad wrote me a check anyway but I feel absolutely horrid about it. He really does love me, I guess.

I know I have a STACK of commissions but doing artwork takes energy and health and I have very little of that of late. I just sat outside and bawled my eyes out. And this is without the prospect of more doctors bills in the future to try to do something about my possible endo.

The only ray of sunshine I have is - believe it or not - my Numb3rs recaps. I don't know why, they just relax me and make me laugh. There's very little else making me laugh in my life, so indulging in the silliness seems pretty harmless. I know, it's sad laughing at your own humour, but eh. *shrug* My last recap hasn't gone any response yet, apart from two people *hugs them*. *shrug* Oh well. Maybe I've oversaturated you all. More important things to worry about than that right now, anyway.

Later!

love,
Nancy.

Comments

[sparklinblossom.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*
Sorry to hear about your family. Glad your ray of sunshine is your Numb3rs recaps. I enjoy them alot, I just don't have much time to comment on LJ.
:)

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Oh - thank you. I know more people see and say nothing than not, it seems the way with me (people are funny!). Thank you for telling me you enjoy it, it means a lot to me! :)

[leopardeternal.livejournal.com]

I stuck ya on my friends list mostly just 'cause I like your posts. You've a very unique perspective on the world at times and I just love it! Not familiar with Numb3rs and so I don't really go through your recaps. I just like your posts.

Sorry you had such a crappy day, hope it gets better soon

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Wow... really? That's so sweet! You know, you've really cheered me up with that. Bless you! *hugs*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Aah, I'll figure out this sore gut thing and I'll finish that course whether it kills me. The trains let me down, not my guts. :)

And dude - don't give up on things that make you happy. Money is good but the spirit is more important any day. :)

[whimsicalmuse.livejournal.com]

What a shit-tastic day. *hugs you* I hope you're feeling better tomorrow and the day is kinder to you. And I got your email (sorry it took me so long). Don't worry about anything, okay? Whenever or never is fine.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Never isn't fine - I just have to find the print and rescan it in a higher dpi. I have the paper, I have your address - just need to get my shit together. :) You're on my list, buddy! *hug*

[berenicepotter.livejournal.com]

Aww, Nancy *hugs* That really sucks. Hope you find out what is wrong with you and get better soon. Just try to relax, hon. And do more Numbers recpas if that make you feel good XD They are awesome. *kisses*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Well, if it is endo, then there's no getting better. Just treating the symptoms.

But you can't stop me capping! I love it too much!

[starfyre01.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry that you're having such a rough time with things healthwise - and I hope that things get better for you.

Keep up with the Numb3rs recaps, though! They're damn funny :-D

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks, dude. Won't be giving them up till I run out of episodes! (I nearly wrote eppes instead of eps LOL!)

[shirasade]

*hugging you*

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

It's okay. Without a Trace is on, and it's a Danny ep.

Mmmmmm. Enrique Murciano. *swoon*

[nousia.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm sorry life's been bitchy to you, Nancy. Hope you feel better!

Keep on laughing, girl. *grins* [that sounds weird..but hopefully you got what I was trying to say..]

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I will eventually. With every down, there's an up. :)

[fyrdrakken]

Maybe you could do something like alternate a recap with working on a commission -- sort of motivate yourself to do something that'll bring in a bit of money by rewarding yourself afterwards?

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Well, the recaps don't exhaust me in the slightest. They might exhaust my funny-bone but that's about it. It's just pasting links and giggling as I type in my journal. Nothing on sitting there sketching and struggling and trying to get something to look like something. Good suggestion, though.

[fyrdrakken]

Exactly. The commissions are hard work and difficult to make yourself do sometimes -- but you get that long-term feeling of accomplishment and a bit of money right when you really need it. The recaps are short-term pleasure -- like dessert to motivate you to finish your vegetables first.