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Double Appointment Day.
Nov. 3rd, 2008 08:33 pmSo, I've been a busy girl today.
( Pain Appointment - A Story About Pain... )
Then it was time for the clinical psychologist appointment. She specialises in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. I think that's what it's called. Basically, trying to sort out my negative thinking. Which is great, because I tell you - I have a BUTTLOAD of it. I've found her to be incredibly helpful in working out my issues. One thing that she wants me to do is to list down the good things about myself, the things I like about myself - sans my talents.
( One can judge a tree by its fruit... )
Psychoanalysis is often difficult. I know I'm making headway if I end up crying about it. I think there'll be a lot of crying over this one. Listing my strong points. It's hard because I have a lot of faults I feel guilty about. I wish I were a better person every day.
Will I ever be free of my lack of self-confidence? Probably not, I'll probably be fighting it for the rest of my life. As long as I make some progress, though, as long as I learn that I was wrong about some things, that I'm better than I know, then it won't be for nothing.
( Pain Appointment - A Story About Pain... )
Then it was time for the clinical psychologist appointment. She specialises in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. I think that's what it's called. Basically, trying to sort out my negative thinking. Which is great, because I tell you - I have a BUTTLOAD of it. I've found her to be incredibly helpful in working out my issues. One thing that she wants me to do is to list down the good things about myself, the things I like about myself - sans my talents.
( One can judge a tree by its fruit... )
Psychoanalysis is often difficult. I know I'm making headway if I end up crying about it. I think there'll be a lot of crying over this one. Listing my strong points. It's hard because I have a lot of faults I feel guilty about. I wish I were a better person every day.
Will I ever be free of my lack of self-confidence? Probably not, I'll probably be fighting it for the rest of my life. As long as I make some progress, though, as long as I learn that I was wrong about some things, that I'm better than I know, then it won't be for nothing.
