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Okay. Johnny is doing way better than he was. He's quite sick, but stable. Awake, alert, annoyed at getting poked with needles and being stuck in an uncomfortable bed. Mum is visiting him every day so Cati (his Mum) can go grab some lunch, a coffee and a cigarette.
It's the Royal Show. It happens every year and every year I get so damned excited about it. I KNOW it's a horrible rip-off. I know that it's getting worse and worse and there's less to see. And I know that, being sick, it's a real challenge to be walking all day looking at shit. But it's one of those things that's like a ritual to me. I smell the donuts and cow shit and hear the cows lowing and the people screaming on the rides, the rumble of thousands of people having fun and I just want to go over there and have a good explore. Only problem is that I'm horribly, horribly broke right now. :T
I want to look at bunnies and doggies and kitties and cows and alpacas, damn it! And look at cheap crap at horrible stores. Eat horribly unhealthy food and watch other people make themselves sick on huge noisy rides. Pick up dropped change and sit on drying grass that is trodden to hell while I look in my bag for my purse. Smell the sod and the animals and the sweet smell of plastic from all the showbags and cheap toys.
Anyway, I decided I'm going to do a video of me painting a picture, a real painting on an actual canvas. Just so I can share my way of doing things at this moment in time. I'll look like shit in it but I'm too sick to bother with a tonne of make-up. I'll be painting my Dad. If I do someone too recognisable, I'll get nervous, and the point is to highlight my technique, not ooh at the pretty (which is what would happen if I painted, say, the Doctor :D). :)
I'm setting up my keyboard outside and will be practicing singing again. It's been too long, I used to do it all the time and it made me so happy. I stopped when I got sick cause my diaphragm gets tired and it breaks my heart to hear my voice so weak. But I know I have to keep working at it or I'll lose it.
Anyway, I'm going to keep cruising ONTD for a while and work up to actually doing something today at some point.
It's the Royal Show. It happens every year and every year I get so damned excited about it. I KNOW it's a horrible rip-off. I know that it's getting worse and worse and there's less to see. And I know that, being sick, it's a real challenge to be walking all day looking at shit. But it's one of those things that's like a ritual to me. I smell the donuts and cow shit and hear the cows lowing and the people screaming on the rides, the rumble of thousands of people having fun and I just want to go over there and have a good explore. Only problem is that I'm horribly, horribly broke right now. :T
I want to look at bunnies and doggies and kitties and cows and alpacas, damn it! And look at cheap crap at horrible stores. Eat horribly unhealthy food and watch other people make themselves sick on huge noisy rides. Pick up dropped change and sit on drying grass that is trodden to hell while I look in my bag for my purse. Smell the sod and the animals and the sweet smell of plastic from all the showbags and cheap toys.
Anyway, I decided I'm going to do a video of me painting a picture, a real painting on an actual canvas. Just so I can share my way of doing things at this moment in time. I'll look like shit in it but I'm too sick to bother with a tonne of make-up. I'll be painting my Dad. If I do someone too recognisable, I'll get nervous, and the point is to highlight my technique, not ooh at the pretty (which is what would happen if I painted, say, the Doctor :D). :)
I'm setting up my keyboard outside and will be practicing singing again. It's been too long, I used to do it all the time and it made me so happy. I stopped when I got sick cause my diaphragm gets tired and it breaks my heart to hear my voice so weak. But I know I have to keep working at it or I'll lose it.
Anyway, I'm going to keep cruising ONTD for a while and work up to actually doing something today at some point.
