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May. 25th, 2008
'A day at a time' is the hardest of all.
May. 25th, 2008 05:16 pmThe cycle's of 'okay' and 'complete crap' are slowing down. Now I'm just in a sort of gloomy sadness most of the time. It's as if all the pain is trickling out slowly and I'm dealing with it bit by bit. I'm still trying to make sense of everything but it's so hard.
I feel like someone's died. It's so weird.
He said sorry. He said he'd seek help. I don't know what to say to him, other than goodbye.
When I think about it too hard I start yawning, start feel incredibly tired. I'm absolutely afraid to be alone. I've always had a problem being alone but now it's ridiculous.
I don't know what I'm going to be feeling during a day ahead. Everything is uncertainty. I'm frightened and I feel alone, even though logically I know I'm safe and that there are people here for me.
I feel a terrible sense of loss, though I haven't really lost anything.
And I'm scared of not getting the therapy that I need. I am just finishing off paying Dad the money that I owe him. Now I'm probably going to owe him money all over again thanks to psychologist fees. It's just so unfair.
I think I just need to have a good cry.
I feel like someone's died. It's so weird.
He said sorry. He said he'd seek help. I don't know what to say to him, other than goodbye.
When I think about it too hard I start yawning, start feel incredibly tired. I'm absolutely afraid to be alone. I've always had a problem being alone but now it's ridiculous.
I don't know what I'm going to be feeling during a day ahead. Everything is uncertainty. I'm frightened and I feel alone, even though logically I know I'm safe and that there are people here for me.
I feel a terrible sense of loss, though I haven't really lost anything.
And I'm scared of not getting the therapy that I need. I am just finishing off paying Dad the money that I owe him. Now I'm probably going to owe him money all over again thanks to psychologist fees. It's just so unfair.
I think I just need to have a good cry.
Latvian Pirates?
May. 25th, 2008 08:45 pmOkay. So I finally saw Latvia's entry into the 2008 Eurovision Song contest. And as far as this Pirate is concerned...
YOU MOTHERFUCKERS SUCK COCKS.
Icelandic Pirates for ME!
YOU MOTHERFUCKERS SUCK COCKS.
Icelandic Pirates for ME!
