AAARGH!!

( Frustration, thy name is Destruct-O-Match II!!! )

Sore day number four.

I know you're probably sick of hearing this - I'm totally sick of saying it - but I'm in pain. Awful pain. Usually I can play Destruct-O-Match all right when I'm in pain. I can't do that, I can't concentrate. I'm really fucking sore. It's been this way for about four or five days now. I wake up every morning with a pukey feeling, and then the pain starts as soon as I get up to do stuff.

I'm so fecking sick of this. I'm considering calling up the doctor Karen recommended to me and seeing what he says. Dr. Gan put me on some really stupid anti-inflammatories that do absolutely nothing for the pain. I take them every night and when I'm in pain. I've taken four today and they've done nothing.

I don't know why it's hurting like this - it's not usual. Usually I'm having a good week of health right now, and I'm not. I don't know what's up, but it's worrying me. At first I thought it was a urinary tract infection but it's not the same symptoms exactly. My pee isn't stinging and I'm peeing plenty.

God damn. I just wish it would stop - it HURTS.

Thoroughly ashamed.

bishounenjunkie has a copy of the article up in her lj Riots of people in beach-side suburbs of Sydney, beating up on people of Middle Eastern appearance.

I am so ashamed of them. It makes me sick to my stomach (and I'm already pretty sick there anyway), and it makes me sad for my country that this sort of thing is happening in it. I am always very proud of Australia, that she is a nation of different faces, different ways, all coming together peacefully under one ideal - to have a happy and free life.

I know this country isn't perfect, that a lot of awful things happen because of those that live in it. Sometimes I wonder if the current generation is spoilt rotten. They don't know what a wonderful thing they have in this country, how much some people would give to enjoy the lifestyle we have. What spoilt, selfish, horrible bastards.

I just hope this crap gets stomped out, and quickly. That sort of behaviour does NOT belong in this country.