I don't know what to tell you about the doctor, luv. I'm freaked out myself about seeing a new doctor for the first time in a year and half tomorrow morning, but it has to be done. If you're not comfortable with whoever you end up with, at least get the immediate crap looked at before your 'safe' doc comes back from vacation. You can even tell 'new' doc about the concerns you have with new doctors in general - the issues you've had in the past, etc. I don't know if it'd help, but at least the new doc would be aware of your concerns.
*hugs*
As for your art, I know the feeling of not getting what you want out of it. I sometimes get to the point where I'll buy sketchbooks and then leave them blank because I don't think my 'art' is good enough to doodle in there. It's a horrible feeling, but the only way past it is to keep doing it. Doodle, sketch, do still life, anatomy, etc.... whatever it takes to loosen you up so you can get in there and lose all sense of time around you. Keep at it, even if you're not happy with it at first... it'll come back to you. It has to.
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dancing_serpent
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Date: 2007-01-29 07:31 am (UTC)*hugs*
As for your art, I know the feeling of not getting what you want out of it. I sometimes get to the point where I'll buy sketchbooks and then leave them blank because I don't think my 'art' is good enough to doodle in there. It's a horrible feeling, but the only way past it is to keep doing it. Doodle, sketch, do still life, anatomy, etc.... whatever it takes to loosen you up so you can get in there and lose all sense of time around you. Keep at it, even if you're not happy with it at first... it'll come back to you. It has to.
Big hugs, babe!