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Sep. 18th, 2006
I never change.
Sep. 18th, 2006 11:52 pmI think I do, but really, I don't. Well, not in some things.
I finally saw the deleted Wesley Crusher scene in the tenth Trek movie. I could see that Wil was a bit rusty in playing Wes. I could have killed the writers. When he went off after the girl he reeked of Guttenberg (as in Steve). Yeah, go on, abandon the Captain you haven't seen in years for some hussy.
And - there we go. Me getting mad at them writing that Wesley is going after some girl. Now, when Wesley went after Robin Lefler in that episode "The Game"? I was FERAL. I was so mad! People couldn't figure out why I was so upset. And looking back, I can't really see why I was upset either. My reasoning back then was that I was developing a storyline with Wes and Eleanor at Starfleet and it mucked things up. But you know what? Looking back, it mucked things up beautifully. It made for a great plot that I'm still yet to write, but it bubbles in my head sometimes.
But here I am, years since I've seriously sat down and written pages of my ol' Wes fics, and I find myself feeling that feeling again. Irritation. Frustration. The ol' Wes jealousy. And I don't even LIKE Wil Wheaton like that anymore.
Yet, if I accepted the fact that Wesley came back to Starfleet like I did in that short story, because it was in the cut scene, then it'd be kinda silly that I'd ignore that he went over to talk to the girl. I'm in denial though, for the sake of my sanity. It just didn't happen. Cause if it did, then Wes would be cheating on his wife. (Though, cheating on his wife at a wedding? What a fucking moron).
It could have been worse, I suppose. He could have said, "And I got married to so and so and blah blah blah!".
I wonder why I care at all. Maybe it's cause I've had these characters in my head for years. I saw so much wasted potential in Wesley Crusher's character. I used the Starfleet Academy series as a way of showing the best situations for his character to play off others. His friends are all very rambunctious, hellacious types. I think that shakes him out of his 'beigeness' that the Enterprise kinda infected him with. Not that I ever had a problem with Trek, but let's be honest. He's a young man. He really needed to live it up a little. Don't take a girl for a quiet drink in the holodeck. Get her to encourage him to sneak into engineering and snog in the Jeffries tubes or something stupid like that. (You know, the stupid things kids do to pass the time).
Aah. I've vented. I'm over it. Not that 'mild annoyance' is much to get over. But feeling even a FLICKER of what I used to feel as a teenager is enough to get me all a-tither. I was a very over-emotional, obsessed young girl.
And now I'm a medicated, obsessed woman. What a difference a decade makes!
I finally saw the deleted Wesley Crusher scene in the tenth Trek movie. I could see that Wil was a bit rusty in playing Wes. I could have killed the writers. When he went off after the girl he reeked of Guttenberg (as in Steve). Yeah, go on, abandon the Captain you haven't seen in years for some hussy.
And - there we go. Me getting mad at them writing that Wesley is going after some girl. Now, when Wesley went after Robin Lefler in that episode "The Game"? I was FERAL. I was so mad! People couldn't figure out why I was so upset. And looking back, I can't really see why I was upset either. My reasoning back then was that I was developing a storyline with Wes and Eleanor at Starfleet and it mucked things up. But you know what? Looking back, it mucked things up beautifully. It made for a great plot that I'm still yet to write, but it bubbles in my head sometimes.
But here I am, years since I've seriously sat down and written pages of my ol' Wes fics, and I find myself feeling that feeling again. Irritation. Frustration. The ol' Wes jealousy. And I don't even LIKE Wil Wheaton like that anymore.
Yet, if I accepted the fact that Wesley came back to Starfleet like I did in that short story, because it was in the cut scene, then it'd be kinda silly that I'd ignore that he went over to talk to the girl. I'm in denial though, for the sake of my sanity. It just didn't happen. Cause if it did, then Wes would be cheating on his wife. (Though, cheating on his wife at a wedding? What a fucking moron).
It could have been worse, I suppose. He could have said, "And I got married to so and so and blah blah blah!".
I wonder why I care at all. Maybe it's cause I've had these characters in my head for years. I saw so much wasted potential in Wesley Crusher's character. I used the Starfleet Academy series as a way of showing the best situations for his character to play off others. His friends are all very rambunctious, hellacious types. I think that shakes him out of his 'beigeness' that the Enterprise kinda infected him with. Not that I ever had a problem with Trek, but let's be honest. He's a young man. He really needed to live it up a little. Don't take a girl for a quiet drink in the holodeck. Get her to encourage him to sneak into engineering and snog in the Jeffries tubes or something stupid like that. (You know, the stupid things kids do to pass the time).
Aah. I've vented. I'm over it. Not that 'mild annoyance' is much to get over. But feeling even a FLICKER of what I used to feel as a teenager is enough to get me all a-tither. I was a very over-emotional, obsessed young girl.
And now I'm a medicated, obsessed woman. What a difference a decade makes!
