Fuuck.

Can you get a headache from coming off of codeine? Or am I just having a migraine?

Oh DK, you sexy bastard.

He sings, too.

How's a girl supposed to keep her head when he keeps doing things that make her so hot and bothered? Cheeky monkey.

Conundrum of PAIN.

I'm really sore. My guts are hurting. Pokey-poke pain. The only thing that'll curb it is codeine. But I don't want to take codeine, for the obvious reasons.

FUCK. *whimper* I'm so sore.

Bwah. Can't take it anymore.

The laptop I'm borrowing from Kate - the power problem is ridiculous. It's just not convenient anymore - the laptop, I mean. If I want to use it, it HAS to be on my lap, so my leg can press on the cord and put pressure on the dongle. Cause something is wrong with the socket. My brothers are pretty sure the socket is buggered.

I mean. WHERE do you buy a socket? For a really old laptop? I don't even know where to begin to find one.

Way to make a girl feel crazy. Oh well. I can deal, I really can. The other thing is that it's really heavy and it presses down on my stomach. It kinda hurts. So I have to put it on my hips, it's not so bad. I can deal with that.

My brother Paul was all, "If you get the replacement part, then I can fix it. If not, all I can do is fuse the cord to the power input, which might screw it." Yeah. So there's not much I can do.

I really like sitting on the couch under the air conditioner and typing up my story. It's so relaxing down in the lounge. The window box is pretty and the couch is comfy as hell.

I took codeine again cause I was hurting so bad. I feel like such a fucking junky.

Sick sick sick.

Sometimes I sit thee and wonder if I'm actually feeling this bad, if the pain is really as bad as I'm feeling, or whether I'm just too weak or sensitive or something. Cause I know there are women in more pain than me. I can't have been sick for a solid month, unable to do anything, can I? Cause I look back and that's what happened and I don't even feel like it's my life.

You know what I really want to do? Sit down, relax, and write some of my Mummy story. The one where Alex is all grown up and he comes back to Egypt and meets Connie and Ardeth's kids and there's a big fuss cause Connie and Ardeth's kids are totally different to the other kids and all this shit is going on - it happens in 1955.

But I can't cause I feel like death warmed up. I feel like someone has stuck skewers into my guts. Oh... and this:

Car ad shames women: Greer Yeah, I fucking agree!!! I hate that fucking ad!

Bwah, can't take this pain. I don't like it. I don't like what my life is doing. Can't do much for now, I suppose. I'm going to TRY to relax.

( Some more fanfic stuff - Mummy fic )

God. You know you're in a bad place health-wise if you're looking FORWARD to going into hospital for an operation, even if it is a minor one.

Bishie Time!!!

( The delicious Seiichi Tanabe... )

Can you believe he's like, 36?! I thought he was in his 20s! He's so cute in Ringu 0. I might have to get some screen grabs. He was so good in it. Long legs. Cute shirt. The most bee-YOO-tiful hair. And that face, and those lips. Mmmm. *Dies*