Rage ON, bitches.

[logansrogue]

I'm mad, dudes. I am in a towering rage. It's the sort of rage that people rarely feel, and I'd never want them to. It goes deep down, right down into my bones and it would eat me alive if I let it. I am doing my utmost to be a good, caring, gentle human being. I AGONISED over the decision to release a certain post full of information. I carefully came to the choice of using a certain person's internet handle instead of using their real name, so that they could still find work, but still be easily identified as the perpetrator amongst our social circle. Making him a social pariah seemed like an ACCEPTABLE OUTCOME to me. It seems the LEAST of his punishment.

He feels bad? GOOD. HE'S SUPPOSED TO. I'M NOT FEELING BAD ABOUT THAT, OKAY? I'M NOT A BAD PERSON FOR BEING HAPPY THAT HE'S SORRY. IT WAS HIS FAULT. EVERYTHING, ALL OF THIS, IS HIS FAULT, AND HE KNOWS IT. HOW FUCKING DARE HE TURN THIS INTO BEING ABOUT HIM. HOW FUCKING DARE HE. FOR ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE I AM TOTALLY JUSTIFIED IN SAYING THAT THIS IS ALL. ABOUT. ME.

So if you wanna come into my journal and tell me that I'm making myself the victim here, or defend that festering gob of shite that hurt me, let me save you the fucking effort. I don't want to hear it.

No really, guys, READ THIS THREAD.

I'm only human. My anger is a weakness in some ways, but it's kept me sane through some of the darkest days of my life so far. Don't you fucking dare tell me that I don't have a right to it, or that you feel bad because I feel bad. DON'T CARE, SERIOUSLY DON'T CARE. YOU REALLY DON'T SERIOUSLY EXPECT ME TO CARE, DO YOU?

... Phew. Good to get that out of my system.

Comments

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I'm amazed at the ability of our society to somehow bring even the remorse and negative social consequences of being a sex offender down to being the victim's responsibility somehow. Like the things he's suffering are unfair or too much for him to bear and I'm supposed to fix that somehow. What, because in this situation the justice system didn't think this important enough to make a case out of, I should never feel like I have a sense of justice? That I shouldn't do SOMETHING to protect other women out there, more vulnerable than me?

I'm trying not to feel guilty, but there's a deeper, emotional part of me that rarely listens to reason. Very hard to get that aspect of myself to calm down and chill.

Anyway, big thanks. *hugs*

[lauredhel.livejournal.com]

I have no idea what to say, except that I've been absolutely ragingly incensed since you first talked about this, and that feeling has only got stronger over time. The rapist (yes, I'm not tiptoing around this like his buddies are, I'm naming it for what it IS) needs to shut the fuck up and make amends to society[1] some way other than a writhing disclaimed-faux-cry-for-sympathy, and his enablers and apologists and coddlers need to shut the fuck up and take a long hard look at themselves.

[1] If he's wondering "but hooooow?", I suggest figuring out how long he should be in fucking PRISON for, and donating every single bit of above-subsistence income during that time to accessible rape crisis services. Just in case anyone asked me. That could be a start. And, obviously, taking bulletproof steps to ensure that he will never.do.it.again.