logansrogue: (WhatevsXena)
logansrogue ([personal profile] logansrogue) wrote2008-12-14 08:34 am

Rage ON, bitches.

I'm mad, dudes. I am in a towering rage. It's the sort of rage that people rarely feel, and I'd never want them to. It goes deep down, right down into my bones and it would eat me alive if I let it. I am doing my utmost to be a good, caring, gentle human being. I AGONISED over the decision to release a certain post full of information. I carefully came to the choice of using a certain person's internet handle instead of using their real name, so that they could still find work, but still be easily identified as the perpetrator amongst our social circle. Making him a social pariah seemed like an ACCEPTABLE OUTCOME to me. It seems the LEAST of his punishment.

He feels bad? GOOD. HE'S SUPPOSED TO. I'M NOT FEELING BAD ABOUT THAT, OKAY? I'M NOT A BAD PERSON FOR BEING HAPPY THAT HE'S SORRY. IT WAS HIS FAULT. EVERYTHING, ALL OF THIS, IS HIS FAULT, AND HE KNOWS IT. HOW FUCKING DARE HE TURN THIS INTO BEING ABOUT HIM. HOW FUCKING DARE HE. FOR ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE I AM TOTALLY JUSTIFIED IN SAYING THAT THIS IS ALL. ABOUT. ME.

So if you wanna come into my journal and tell me that I'm making myself the victim here, or defend that festering gob of shite that hurt me, let me save you the fucking effort. I don't want to hear it.

No really, guys, READ THIS THREAD.

I'm only human. My anger is a weakness in some ways, but it's kept me sane through some of the darkest days of my life so far. Don't you fucking dare tell me that I don't have a right to it, or that you feel bad because I feel bad. DON'T CARE, SERIOUSLY DON'T CARE. YOU REALLY DON'T SERIOUSLY EXPECT ME TO CARE, DO YOU?

... Phew. Good to get that out of my system.

[identity profile] originalnilson.livejournal.com 2008-12-14 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
I got so angry reading her comments that I cried lol. I read her comments here and in Terrycat's lj. I held back posting to her directly because it's obvious that she is blindly protecting her family unit and is being completely unsympathetic to your situation.

Ignore her comments best you can dude. Listen to those around you who are thinking with a rational mind.

You had every right to out him - It was the right thing to do. And he is now having to face the consequences of said actions, and hopefully will seek the help he needs. If he hadn't had to confront it, it might of gone on without proper attention.

I was expecting this to happen eventually, some people close to him will might retaliate somewhat. Just remember that those close to, you care about you, and I love you, and we are never going to stop supporting you.

[identity profile] logansrogue.livejournal.com 2008-12-14 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
God blessed me when you popped out of Mummy's cooter. It's moments like this that you're as much an angel to me as you looked when you were fresh and white and fey.

That makes little sense but I'm still high.

[identity profile] sir-devans.livejournal.com 2008-12-14 06:19 am (UTC)(link)
Just remember that those close to, you care about you, and I love you, and we are never going to stop supporting you.
ditto.