Rage ON, bitches.

[logansrogue]

I'm mad, dudes. I am in a towering rage. It's the sort of rage that people rarely feel, and I'd never want them to. It goes deep down, right down into my bones and it would eat me alive if I let it. I am doing my utmost to be a good, caring, gentle human being. I AGONISED over the decision to release a certain post full of information. I carefully came to the choice of using a certain person's internet handle instead of using their real name, so that they could still find work, but still be easily identified as the perpetrator amongst our social circle. Making him a social pariah seemed like an ACCEPTABLE OUTCOME to me. It seems the LEAST of his punishment.

He feels bad? GOOD. HE'S SUPPOSED TO. I'M NOT FEELING BAD ABOUT THAT, OKAY? I'M NOT A BAD PERSON FOR BEING HAPPY THAT HE'S SORRY. IT WAS HIS FAULT. EVERYTHING, ALL OF THIS, IS HIS FAULT, AND HE KNOWS IT. HOW FUCKING DARE HE TURN THIS INTO BEING ABOUT HIM. HOW FUCKING DARE HE. FOR ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE I AM TOTALLY JUSTIFIED IN SAYING THAT THIS IS ALL. ABOUT. ME.

So if you wanna come into my journal and tell me that I'm making myself the victim here, or defend that festering gob of shite that hurt me, let me save you the fucking effort. I don't want to hear it.

No really, guys, READ THIS THREAD.

I'm only human. My anger is a weakness in some ways, but it's kept me sane through some of the darkest days of my life so far. Don't you fucking dare tell me that I don't have a right to it, or that you feel bad because I feel bad. DON'T CARE, SERIOUSLY DON'T CARE. YOU REALLY DON'T SERIOUSLY EXPECT ME TO CARE, DO YOU?

... Phew. Good to get that out of my system.

Comments

Originally this comment was just supposed to be one paragraph long.

[shantari.livejournal.com]

You're only a victim if you call yourself that? YOU'RE ONLY A VICTIM IF YOU CALL YOURSELF THAT??????? WHAT THE FLYING MONKEY FUCKKKK!!???!?!?!?!?!?!

On the one hand, warning of a potential rapist so that other women will keep their guard up, on the other hand protect the integrity of said potential rapist because it might in some way effect one more person. Yeah, I'm going to have to go with the "better for the many over the few". Damn you soap operas with your dirty women faking rapes so that society gets it ingrained that all rape cases are in this mysterious grey area where it might be something that you "should just get over" and not give the "accused" a potential hell.

Regretting is one thing, it is not the same as taking the consequences of your actions, you end up doing both if you are anything worth having a name. His lj-username being out in the open? Oh noes! It's almost as bad as having his real name out? Does this person expect you to "almost" care? When companies google names, I'm hard pressed to think they would then go to the trouble googling the username associated with the RL name, if a clear association exists or not. Was he intoxicated? In any way bereft of his senses that could clear him from accepting responsibility? Was he provoked by you or anyone else? No, at least not as I gather from the way you told it, and your story didn't leave any swingroom for any of that, and this is not a thing I can see or imagine you lie about. If there are any people I can imagine fabricating such a story, I hope I never meet them. So yeah, consequences follow on your actions, and regrets follow you if you have a conscience. They're not the same thing just because their origin's the same.

*hugs for you* *and some saffran buns*

Re: Originally this comment was just supposed to be one paragraph long.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thank you, my raging protector of loff. *hugs* (I'm high on sedatives presently to stop the panic and it's working quite effectively.)