First day of school.

[logansrogue]

I must say, I came home rather depressed.

Not only was I not with my friends in class today (I missed them dearly) cause I'm repeating, but everyone in the class knew each other and didn't really know me. I felt so left out. I'm terrified that when it comes time to break up into groups for projects, I'll be on my own. :(

Then there's the fact that this is a six month course, after which I'll have six months where I have to wait for the next certificate to start because Cert IV doesn't do a mid-year start. I am so boned. What am I going to do for six months? I was talking to my brother at the station and some fucking smart-arsed jerk overheard and said, "Get a job."

Yeah, very fucking funny. God willing, I should be well enough after the operation to work. But who wants to hire me for six months? I suppose I could just do temp work again, like data entry or something. It'd be really nice to be able to earn some decent money for once.

I'm just scared if I DON'T get better. What will I do? :( I'm already nervous about doing this course in this state. *sigh* Fuck.

Anyway, the upshot of all of this is that I'm feeling a bit down. I feel like I've been left behind. I hate this sickness. I'm so shitty that it's done this to me.

Comments

[strangedave.livejournal.com]

I know, I know. Just trying to put a positive spin on it. THe truth is, you'll be in the same situation as many thousands of other people, only you will have loads of talent and plenty of people to help you out, which not everyone is lucky enough to have. You will find something, you just don't know what it is yet and you have a few months to work out what it will be.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

I know. *nods* It's just another stress. *sigh*