First day of school.

[logansrogue]

I must say, I came home rather depressed.

Not only was I not with my friends in class today (I missed them dearly) cause I'm repeating, but everyone in the class knew each other and didn't really know me. I felt so left out. I'm terrified that when it comes time to break up into groups for projects, I'll be on my own. :(

Then there's the fact that this is a six month course, after which I'll have six months where I have to wait for the next certificate to start because Cert IV doesn't do a mid-year start. I am so boned. What am I going to do for six months? I was talking to my brother at the station and some fucking smart-arsed jerk overheard and said, "Get a job."

Yeah, very fucking funny. God willing, I should be well enough after the operation to work. But who wants to hire me for six months? I suppose I could just do temp work again, like data entry or something. It'd be really nice to be able to earn some decent money for once.

I'm just scared if I DON'T get better. What will I do? :( I'm already nervous about doing this course in this state. *sigh* Fuck.

Anyway, the upshot of all of this is that I'm feeling a bit down. I feel like I've been left behind. I hate this sickness. I'm so shitty that it's done this to me.

Comments

[chocojester.livejournal.com]

Don't think of the negatives. It can push other thought out of the way. I know from experience and it's hard. I can understand though what you mean, but repeating can be hard. You just need to give it time. I repeated myself. Granted it was like year 2 but the impact at the time was pretty hard, but then I had new friends that I could get along with as well as my old ones ;)

I do hope everything will work itself out for you. Keep any options you have as open as possible. 6 months my be a short period but if you explain everything in full and give them your reason why you still wish to work, it's being honest and they may still consider (depending what you're wanting to do).

But in all, all I can respon to you with is a massive and great, big *HUGGLES*! I'm here to talk to at any point if you wish.


OT: Your Inbox at the N.org forum is full. Tried replying to your PM but I couldn't. I'll get the file reuploaded for you soon.

[logansrogue.livejournal.com]

Thanks, darling, I really appreciate the advice! *hugs* Hopefully things will workout for me.

I emptied it a bit. :)