I'm home. I am so damned doped up right now. I am basically touch-typing this. It's really weird, I just can't keep my eyes open but I"m so bored that I don't want to sleep. It's a weird drugged sleepiness.
They gave me oxycontin. I don't think I like it. I feel a bit nauseous (Nearly wrote sauseous which is funny). Gas hurts as usual. Was on morphine this time, not pethadine. Hd some fun in the theatre before going under. The team there are hilarious, good people. I sang as they put in the drip again, but singing is my coping mechanism when I"m nervous or in pain or both.
Mum's currently watching Doomsday. I hate the sound of the movie. Booming, shouting, screaming, stupid bitches being hysterical and a trite soundtrack.
So anyway, what they found. Lots and lots of what they call "superficial" growths. Shallow growths. They only like me for my clothes and my good legs, apparently. So if I get ugly and fat, maybe they'll fuck off. Hahaha! But uhm, seriously, it was everywhere. On my ligaments, all around the uterus in between organs, and yay of yays - on. my. BOWEL.
I've heard about what endo on the bowel can do. Needless to say, I am very unhappy about that news. Well, not unhappy. Disappointed? Pissed off? Scared? Good news on the other hand - my organs are not stuck together. And apparently, my ovaries are fine. THANKS BE TO GOD! My baby-maker is safe for now.
Oh, and I've been scratching myself silly all afternoon. I was too high to stop it. Now I have scratches all over my face. Fucking opiates.
Oh THANK GOD. The movie Mum was watching is over. I swear, that woman's voice was so fucking annoying that even her laugh made me want to punch a cunt. Fucking hell.
I'm mean on oxycontin. Isn't that what House is supposedly hooked on? This would explain a lot.Aaaanyway:
Thank you all so much for your well wishes in the last post. It means a lot to me! I really do have some wonderful friends :).
