Sooo hungry.

No food today. I'm a girl who loves, loves, LOVES her food. Probably why as shocking and low as my self-esteem and self-worth has been in my life, and as deeply depressed as I've gotten, I've never had a real eating disorder to speak of. I touched it when I was nineteen but when my sister Helen called my figure 'boyish' I thought, "Oh shit!" and stuffed my face. I liked having curves! Anyway, I'm really hungry. Mum made some awesome chicken soup, no bits in it, just the runny soup. Very nice. Two more hours till I start downing the liquid of DOOM.

So... watching Doctor Who...

( Spoiler )

... *phew* I'm going to go RP some Who-age on the meta-list I'm on. Whee!

UGH!

I'm having the *hardest* time downing this horrid liquid. I don't know what to do. I'm having a gag reflex every time I swallow it, I'm really scared I'll just vomit it up again. I'm supposed to have gone through the first litre by now - I'm hardly through the first glass!

I honestly don't know what to do or how to cope. It's very upsetting cause I'm going to screw up my own colonoscopy!